I just wanted to say I'm having a really tough time with my life right now.. I've cried about 4 times this afternoon and I'm sure I'll be crying a couple more times too.. Just wanted to say that I love you all and also that Gaga has been getting me thru this..
So pretty much today I took the ACT .. Us jrs who took it were told to only bring a calculator and pencil.. So we only had 5th and 6th period today.. My 6th period teacher decides that even tho Jrs were supposed to have the day off (btw all 4 grade levels are in this class) she makes us still take the test + turn in a folder.. So I get a 0 on the folder and fail the test.. That was Spanish class.. Then I get the news that I'm kicked off the bowling team for the rest of the week until I get one of my three F's to a D or higher.. See I've been trying to finish a test that would get that one F up to a C since last Thursday. Friday we got out early so I couldn't take it. Monday we got a snow day. Today I had the ACT.. So really it's not my fought that it's an F.. Other classes my teachers I think hate me.. Don't know why tho.. So then I'm on the bus sitting at the back and every one of my friends decide that they should sit with the back stabbing friend then me.. This is the 155277933775 time they've done this now.. So I'm walking home and I start to break down and cry.. I felt like nobody cares about me.. Nobody cares about what I do.. I'm just useless in life.. I try hard at everything I do and all I get is an "ok cool" or an "ok good you finished that".. No body that I know cares about my videos that I work hard on.. Why have I wasted so many days and nights and hours on it if nobody that I know cares about it.. And who do I kid myself, I'm never going to be a pro bowler like I want to be.. I'm just not good enough.. I've already screwed up high school by failing lots of classes (I have ADHD so I have a hard time in school, but I'm really smart too tho..) .. No college will ever accept me.. Only way I'd get in is with a good ACT score, and I prob screwed that up too.. I was ready to put a knife in my chest.. And right now all expect the knife thing I still feel like.. My life's just horrible.. Judas is my depressed song and it's been on non-stop since I got home..
So pretty much today I took the ACT .. Us jrs who took it were told to only bring a calculator and pencil.. So we only had 5th and 6th period today.. My 6th period teacher decides that even tho Jrs were supposed to have the day off (btw all 4 grade levels are in this class) she makes us still take the test + turn in a folder.. So I get a 0 on the folder and fail the test.. That was Spanish class.. Then I get the news that I'm kicked off the bowling team for the rest of the week until I get one of my three F's to a D or higher.. See I've been trying to finish a test that would get that one F up to a C since last Thursday. Friday we got out early so I couldn't take it. Monday we got a snow day. Today I had the ACT.. So really it's not my fought that it's an F.. Other classes my teachers I think hate me.. Don't know why tho.. So then I'm on the bus sitting at the back and every one of my friends decide that they should sit with the back stabbing friend then me.. This is the 155277933775 time they've done this now.. So I'm walking home and I start to break down and cry.. I felt like nobody cares about me.. Nobody cares about what I do.. I'm just useless in life.. I try hard at everything I do and all I get is an "ok cool" or an "ok good you finished that".. No body that I know cares about my videos that I work hard on.. Why have I wasted so many days and nights and hours on it if nobody that I know cares about it.. And who do I kid myself, I'm never going to be a pro bowler like I want to be.. I'm just not good enough.. I've already screwed up high school by failing lots of classes (I have ADHD so I have a hard time in school, but I'm really smart too tho..) .. No college will ever accept me.. Only way I'd get in is with a good ACT score, and I prob screwed that up too.. I was ready to put a knife in my chest.. And right now all expect the knife thing I still feel like.. My life's just horrible.. Judas is my depressed song and it's been on non-stop since I got home..
i have ADHD as well , i also have OCD and it's a major drag ! Hang in there man , i'm positive things will get better
So pretty much today I took the ACT .. Us jrs who took it were told to only bring a calculator and pencil.. So we only had 5th and 6th period today.. My 6th period teacher decides that even tho Jrs were supposed to have the day off (btw all 4 grade levels are in this class) she makes us still take the test + turn in a folder.. So I get a 0 on the folder and fail the test.. That was Spanish class.. Then I get the news that I'm kicked off the bowling team for the rest of the week until I get one of my three F's to a D or higher.. See I've been trying to finish a test that would get that one F up to a C since last Thursday. Friday we got out early so I couldn't take it. Monday we got a snow day. Today I had the ACT.. So really it's not my fought that it's an F.. Other classes my teachers I think hate me.. Don't know why tho.. So then I'm on the bus sitting at the back and every one of my friends decide that they should sit with the back stabbing friend then me.. This is the 155277933775 time they've done this now.. So I'm walking home and I start to break down and cry.. I felt like nobody cares about me.. Nobody cares about what I do.. I'm just useless in life.. I try hard at everything I do and all I get is an "ok cool" or an "ok good you finished that".. No body that I know cares about my videos that I work hard on.. Why have I wasted so many days and nights and hours on it if nobody that I know cares about it.. And who do I kid myself, I'm never going to be a pro bowler like I want to be.. I'm just not good enough.. I've already screwed up high school by failing lots of classes (I have ADHD so I have a hard time in school, but I'm really smart too tho..) .. No college will ever accept me.. Only way I'd get in is with a good ACT score, and I prob screwed that up too.. I was ready to put a knife in my chest.. And right now all expect the knife thing I still feel like.. My life's just horrible.. Judas is my depressed song and it's been on non-stop since I got home..
I had a bad day at school as well... and tomorrow I have to take a HSPA prep test about algebra (I'm in a lower level of Math so we are only like starting algebra) If I don't pass the pretest then I get put into a remedial HSPA prep class.
Today we had to do debates and I totally ****ed up. I had no idea what the hell I was talking about and I sounded really dumb...and it's a Honors class as well to make it worse.
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Don't get so sad about your videos. You put a lot of effort into them and people see that.
I don't think I'm going to get accepted into any colleges either because I've been in slower-classes. My guidance counselor said that I would have to do 2 years of a certain college to make up being in 'slower' classes.
Lastly, you shouldn't be listening to depressing songs...
So pretty much today I took the ACT .. Us jrs who took it were told to only bring a calculator and pencil.. So we only had 5th and 6th period today.. My 6th period teacher decides that even tho Jrs were supposed to have the day off (btw all 4 grade levels are in this class) she makes us still take the test + turn in a folder.. So I get a 0 on the folder and fail the test.. That was Spanish class.. Then I get the news that I'm kicked off the bowling team for the rest of the week until I get one of my three F's to a D or higher.. See I've been trying to finish a test that would get that one F up to a C since last Thursday. Friday we got out early so I couldn't take it. Monday we got a snow day. Today I had the ACT.. So really it's not my fought that it's an F.. Other classes my teachers I think hate me.. Don't know why tho.. So then I'm on the bus sitting at the back and every one of my friends decide that they should sit with the back stabbing friend then me.. This is the 155277933775 time they've done this now.. So I'm walking home and I start to break down and cry.. I felt like nobody cares about me.. Nobody cares about what I do.. I'm just useless in life.. I try hard at everything I do and all I get is an "ok cool" or an "ok good you finished that".. No body that I know cares about my videos that I work hard on.. Why have I wasted so many days and nights and hours on it if nobody that I know cares about it.. And who do I kid myself, I'm never going to be a pro bowler like I want to be.. I'm just not good enough.. I've already screwed up high school by failing lots of classes (I have ADHD so I have a hard time in school, but I'm really smart too tho..) .. No college will ever accept me.. Only way I'd get in is with a good ACT score, and I prob screwed that up too.. I was ready to put a knife in my chest.. And right now all expect the knife thing I still feel like.. My life's just horrible.. Judas is my depressed song and it's been on non-stop since I got home..
Aw... even though I loathe half of the little monsters I feel like doing something special for you. Check your Inbox
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I will not see Judas shaded in this thread 
