sis I hate the beat and everything, I even hate that video... hate the ft. rappers, everything... I know I'm a mess.... Yet I get so much life from Angels Cry
I can't even know what to say. I could somehow understand a dislike for any song but not "Breakdown". The intriguing melody, the perfection of the lyrics, the smoothness of the rap verses, her vocals that are tender and delicate at first and raw and virtuosic in the end >>>>>>>>>
For your own good try to let "Breakdown" into your heart!
Lambs, it's 3am and I am crawling #OnTheBathroomFloor writing this post...
The date with the 41-year-old guy left me with a very bitter taste in my mouth. I was in disarray; I didn't know if I could trust anyone in the world to bring me love and make me happy again, who is truly happy to be with me and not just looking for a hookup.
There was a gay night at a bar in town, and I forced myself to go. I had not been out of the house for anything other than work and food for two weeks. The world was so grey and tiring to me, and I felt my loneliness was killing me. I had to force myself to go because I knew that this would be my last chance to climb out of this abyss. I didn't go there with any expectation other than being in the company of people and hoping it would bring my spirit back.
During the first hour I didn't do much, just dancing half-heartedly to the music. I used to dance in high school so I knew how to dance and performing was not an issue for me. But I had been inside my shell for such a long time that I totally forgot the joy of letting go. My body was tense, and my mind was still looking for a place to hide itself.
But song by song came on; first it was Drunk In Love, then Dancing On My Own, then Vogue, ... and then True Color. The DJ asked the crowd to form little circles with their friends and sing this song out loud. Knowing no one, I thought I was going to be left alone, then a random lady put her hands around my shoulder and dragged me to her circle. I cried singing the song. It wasn't the first time I had heard it, but something about the moment hit me so hard that I couldn't help but break down and cry.
And then, as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulder, or an angel had finally come through to me, I started to lose my inhibition and just dance. Soon enough I was dancing like a free spirit, going from people to people, all of whom I was embarrassed even to look at a few minutes ago. I broke free. Never had dancing made me so high and happy. I almost transformed into a completely different person.
I didn't go there looking for hookup, so I didn't bother checking people out. But there was this boy who was dancing near me; he seemed also very carefree and happy. We conveniently did a few moves together. And then HEARTBREAKER came on. You couldn't imagine how hyped up I was. I was already dancing like crazy, but when that song came on, I just took it to the next level.
That boy seemed to be really feeling the song too. Soon enough we were both dancing and miming the lyrics. We even created a little dance-off drama to the lyrics of the song. At the end, I put my hand on his chest, mock-pushing him away as if he was a 'heartbreaker.' We were the only people doing it who seemed to 'get' the song. It was divine, it was awesome.
At the end of the night the DJ played Ave Maria and asked everyone to form a big circle. Then people would break in and do these slow contemporary moves. At first it was just couples, then single people joined in as well. As I was dancing to the song, I saw him, and without communicating we drew close together, and started dancing together. We were already slow-dancing with our hands on each other's hips when the DJ switched the song. I looked at him smiling, and we parted.
When the night was over, I sat on the sidewalk waiting for my cab. And there he was, sitting with his friends just across from me. We stole some looks at each other. I wasn't brave enough to come up to him to 'close' and ask for his number, so we sat there secretly looking at each other. It was actually really cute.
I felt in me a light that I had never known in my life. Here I am looking at the person who has made me truly happy. I owed so much to him for tonight and he didn't even know it. He wasn't a Tinder match or Grindr profile, he was cute, but not someone you would notice in a crowd. He was a real person who just happened to dance with me and brought me real happiness without asking for anything back.
And I realize happiness is actually not that hard to find. It is very simple. You just have to allow yourself to be happy; it's a wonderful world out there with wonderful people. And who knows, when the moment comes you may even find your true love.
Lambs, it's 3am and I am crawling #OnTheBathroomFloor writing this post...
The date with the 41-year-old guy left me with a very bitter taste in my mouth. I was in disarray; I didn't know if I could trust anyone in the world to bring me love and make me happy again, who is truly happy to be with me and not just looking for a hookup.
There was a gay night at a bar in town, and I forced myself to go. I had not been out of the house for anything other than work and food for two weeks. The world was so grey and tiring to me, and I felt my loneliness was killing me. I had to force myself to go because I knew that this would be my last chance to climb out of this abyss. I didn't go there with any expectation other than being in the company of people and hoping it would bring my spirit back.
During the first hour I didn't do much, just dancing half-heartedly to the music. I used to dance in high school so I knew how to dance and performing was not an issue for me. But I had been inside my shell for such a long time that I totally forgot the joy of letting go. My body was tense, and my mind was still looking for a place to hide itself.
But song by song came on; first it was Drunk In Love, then Dancing On My Own, then Vogue, ... and then True Color. The DJ asked the crowd to form little circles with their friends and sing this song out loud. Knowing no one, I thought I was going to be left alone, then a random lady put her hands around my shoulder and dragged me to her circle. I cried singing the song. It wasn't the first time I had heard it, but something about the moment hit me so hard that I couldn't help but break down and cry.
And then, as if a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulder, or an angel had finally come through to me, I started to lose my inhibition and just dance. Soon enough I was dancing like a free spirit, going from people to people, all of whom I was embarrassed even to look at a few minutes ago. I broke free. Never had dancing made me so high and happy. I almost transformed into a completely different person.
I didn't go there looking for hookup, so I didn't bother checking people out. But there was this boy who was dancing near me; he seemed also very carefree and happy. We conveniently did a few moves together. And then HEARTBREAKER came on. You couldn't imagine how hyped up I was. I was already dancing like crazy, but when that song came on, I just took it to the next level.
That boy seemed to be really feeling the song too. Soon enough we were both dancing and miming the lyrics. We even created a little dance-off drama to the lyrics of the song. At the end, I put my hand on his chest, mock-pushing him away as if he was a 'heartbreaker.' We were the only people doing it who seemed to 'get' the song. It was divine, it was awesome.
At the end of the night the DJ played Ave Maria and asked everyone to form a big circle. Then people would break in and do these slow contemporary moves. At first it was just couples, then single people joined in as well. As I was dancing to the song, I saw him, and without communicating we drew close together, and started dancing together. We were already slow-dancing with our hands on each other's hips when the DJ switched the song. I looked at him smiling, and we parted.
When the night was over, I sat on the sidewalk waiting for my cab. And there he was, sitting with his friends just across from me. We stole some looks at each other. I wasn't brave enough to come up to him to 'close' and ask for his number, so we sat there secretly looking at each other. It was actually really cute.
I felt in me a light that I had never known in my life. Here I am looking at the person who has made me truly happy. I owed so much to him for tonight and he didn't even know it. He wasn't a Tinder match or Grindr profile, he was cute, but not someone you would notice in a crowd. He was a real person who just happened to dance with me and brought me real happiness without asking for anything back.
And I realize happiness is actually not that hard to find. It is very simple. You just have to allow yourself to be happy; it's a wonderful world out there with wonderful people. And who knows, when the moment comes you may even find your true love.
I started reading this post like "", but I genuinely got emotional by the end… I relate to you, sis. And I crave for something real & genuine like that to happen to me, too. Dancing to Mariah in the club sounds euphoric, & meeting a worthy guy outside of a dating app sounds like finding a needle in a haystack, but who knows… Maybe.
I felt in me a light that I had never known in my life. Here I am looking at the person who has made me truly happy. I owed so much to him for tonight and he didn't even know it. He wasn't a Tinder match or Grindr profile, he was cute, but not someone you would notice in a crowd. He was a real person who just happened to dance with me and brought me real happiness without asking for anything back.
And I realize happiness is actually not that hard to find. It is very simple. You just have to allow yourself to be happy; it's a wonderful world out there with wonderful people. And who knows, when the moment comes you may even find your true love.
Migrate boo, I did think of you a few times since you told us about your heartache and I am so happy to read this from you now. Seriously. It is wonderful that you've let go of yourself and those past hurtful weeks.
There are a loT of stupid, negative people out there buT there are many good people, too. As your night out proves it is the lambs that are good-hearted basically, and I am glad that you met someone that turned on your inner light again. I wish you all the best, Migrate. Don't forget: Precious love you'll always have inside you.
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At the end of the night the DJ played Ave Maria [...].
I can't even know what to say. I could somehow understand a dislike for any song but not "Breakdown". The intriguing melody, the perfection of the lyrics, the smoothness of the rap verses, her vocals that are tender and delicate at first and raw and virtuosic in the end >>>>>>>>>
For your own good try to let "Breakdown" into your heart!
Again saying the correct thing. Schamazing dahhlin, schamazing!
And I realize happiness is actually not that hard to find. It is very simple. You just have to allow yourself to be happy; it's a wonderful world out there with wonderful people. And who knows, when the moment comes you may even find your true love.
This is beautiful.
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Someday is slaying me every week
We'd like to dedicate this next song to anyone .. who's ever been dumped by someone they love *mariah laugh* It's called Someday.
Thank you, dahhlin! You have really been into Nicole lately, haven't you? What's your favorite song from her?
I am getting my life from There For Me today. I don't know why y'all never mention this impeccable ballad.
It is so good. The melody, the chorus, the vocals, the finale
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaall, it would take aaaaaaaaaaall
All of my liiiiiiiiiiiiiife to find someone more there for meeeEEeee
You better sing Sissy!
And Migrate that was beautiful. True happiness is such a wonderful thing to experience. It comes and goes yes but when you're truly happy hold on to that feeling. Cuz it'll be what soothes you and eases your future pains and struggles.
Thank you, dahhlin! You have really been into Nicole lately, haven't you? What's your favorite song from her?
Yes, I have. Well, I've always liked her, but I'm only getting into her now that it seems her album is actually coming out. Baby Love and Don't Hold Your Breath are her best. I love working out to Poison, Wet and Your Love too. What about you?
I read somewhere that Nicole has said she was inspired by Mariah but I cannot find the receipts. She mostly talks about Whitney.
Oh, and There For Me is cute. However, there's another There For Me in my life with the name Faded AKA one of the best gems on the new album. It's really a grower. Can't believe I disliked it at first
What are your favorite covers? This is so good, and the closest thing we've gotten to a live rendition of the song. Get into it.
Her strong voice, cute face, the Mariah mannerisms, the hand choreography, the whistle. Soft and mesmersizing voice at first then total vocal takeover. Beautiful.
Migrate boo, I did think of you a few times since you told us about your heartache and I am so happy to read this from you now. Seriously. It is wonderful that you've let go of yourself and those past hurtful weeks.
There are a loT of stupid, negative people out there buT there are many good people, too. As your night out proves it is the lambs that are good-hearted basically, and I am glad that you met someone that turned on your inner light again. I wish you all the best, Migrate. Don't forget: Precious love you'll always have inside you.
At least Beyoncé's version?
Thank you Sissy, for thinking of me. And yes, it was Beyonce's Ave Maria. Never thought I could slow dance with a person to that song. If the DJ hadn't cut it off he and I would have gone for a kiss
*hugs*
