Iīm a mess with a guy. It was like 2 years ago and at first he was like the spawn of satan to me. He made me cry, angered, annoyed and sexually frustrated (in the later part). Everyday it was like hell to me especially when we always go home together with second crush (Now ex). I usually ingnore his ********ness in the earlier days of the semester but it made me want to kill him or something but my ex-crush was the only reason why I havenīt straggled him. He was just so perfect, so kind and hot but the thing is that his straight and he was still clinging into his ex-GIRLFRIEND. And even though I acted like girl and he was just the complete opposite of me, heīs very manly. But all changed when our class celebrated christmas in our school. Their was a games and I really wanted to go be with him and heīs like "Sorry, but find another team" and I was like "Sure okay, well goodluck" and I sulked into a corner of the classroom while they had fun until the son of the devil suddenly approached me and was kind enough to ask me to join there team, but he reasoned out that they were not enough to make a small team (as if as I recall they were enough) and I agreed and everything went happy except we lost big time and he blamed me, but oh well. Then after the party we went to a theater to watch a movie and I sat in the middle of my ex-crush and him. That demon practically molested me in my sit (or tickling me) and annoyed the crap out of me while my ex-crush ignored for some periods of time until he asked if he could have my popcorn. Still we three walk together after school but my ex-crush sometimes has errands to do and sometimes we two were the only one left. And the valentines event happened. I though it was going to suck because I single and I was not ready to mingle except my dying passion of love to my ex-crush. But it turned out it was one of the best days of my whole life. I was the highest in history! While my ex-crush had some errands to do again, the he-devil asked if I was hungry and asked me if I COULD join him to eat in a small store and I was like "Okay" and we walked in silence to the store and again awkwardness occurred when we ate in silence while flocks of couples walked past through us....and I felt like he was asked to a date :O And we went home in silence and I told him "Happy valentines day" and he smiled...it felt right somehow after he sabotaged physically, emotionally and sexually (He playfully acts like me). Though there were so many times where my ex-crush wasnīt there for me while that devil was there. Oh god, even after two years I havenīt confirm his sexually orientation
. Plus his not really my type (Body preference) though he smells heaven especially in gym where I was his little slave and forces me to hold his stuff (because on my school the athletes there are always exempted in gym).
And I wrote this within 10 minutes and Itīs like 1 am so donīt judge me
plus this is an incomplete version (because we were practically together).
xoxo
But I dunno, he is really not my type. So maybe its better this way. Tbh he is not ugly , but I have very specific ideal type of my man.
I'm so utterly embarrassed. Lol.
i felt like he was meaning the **** he was reading. 