I try very very hard for this game not to be rigged or for my bias to help people, especially as we go further in the competition. If anyone feels this game is rigged please speak to me.
Also the drama in Drag Race is fake. Citrus just wanted people to view his game and give him and Dancehall attention.
My Heartgold mono flying team is so cute, my Golbat evolved to a Crobat today and Togepi is at max friendship, I'm just keeping it as it is until I can track down a shiny stone
Team is Crobat-Pidgeotto-Togepi-Gyarados-Drifloon-Butterfree, in Mohagony Town atm
I try very very hard for this game not to be rigged or for my bias to help people, especially as we go further in the competition. If anyone feels this game is rigged please speak to me.
Also the drama in Drag Race is fake. Citrus just wanted people to view his game and give him and Dancehall attention.
"i really feel
that i'm losing my best friend
i can't believe
this could be the end
it looks as though you're letting go
and if it's real
well, i don't want to know"
part 1
II. NATALIA KILLS -
WATCHING YOU
"when you wake up
i'll still believe you're mine, oh
i'm watching you sleep all night
with a stranger on my side
oh, oh, I'm watching you
no, no, no, this is not the plan
if I can't have you
then no one can"
part 2
III. TOVE LO -
HABITS
"you're gone and i gotta stay
high all the time
to keep you off my mind
high all the time
to keep you off my mind
spend my days locked in a haze
trying to forget you babe
i fall back down"
part 3
Hugamari
(I have my reasonings for each song choice in the description of the video, but you don't have to read it! It's just for if you are confused as to why I chose something.)
I am done with life and I am planning on committing suicide
"What do we do now?"
"There's...nothing we can do. You know that."
"We can still try..."
A dead silence filled the night for a few minutes. I didn't respond to his sentiment, because even he knew that we tried. They found us out, and we tried to tell them that it was love. We tried to convince them that what we felt was pure, but it only fell upon deaf ears. "You're going to burn in hell!" they screamed, as they attacked us...physically, mentally. Battered body and shattered soul, we tried. We tried our damnedest to prove that love...REAL love...could overcome anything. I believed it, and, truthfully, I still do.
Maybe our love can't stop them from hating us, and our love surely won't get the blood out of our clothes. Maybe our love can't convince our families to accept us as who we are, or even that we're normal, just like them. But...love can conquer Earthly boundaries. Love WILL conquer Earthly boundaries. Bodies...they're just husks for souls to inhabit. Love is a part of the soul, and with enough power, it never dies.
"Look at me." I said to him, breaking the silence. "You know they'll be here soon." He turned to me, and I could tell that tears were forming in his eyes.
I've seen a lot in my life: I've seen my family turn against me, I've seen my friends become my enemies, I've seen people, just like him and I, killed for being who they are. However, the hardest thing for me to watch is him...crying. Crying because he knows that I stopped fighting. I felt responsible for it. I felt responsible for all of his sadness, and I'd give anything to take that away from him. I give anything...my life included.
"Voices." He speaks up suddenly, "They're almost here." Given that we were in the woods, it'd take them a while to find us, but it was enough. I reached into the bag that I brought with me, and pulled out a gun with a single bullet, and he did the same with his. We turned to face each other, one last time.
"You ready?" I asked him, knowing that this was happening, regardless of if he was ready or not. "I'm ready...I'm sorry." Tears started falling from his eyes. "There's no reason to be sorry...the world should be sorry. They're losing a beautiful person today." I brushed a tear off his cheek and gripped the gun in my right hand. "On 10..." I said, then we started to count together.
"1..." The voices started to pick up in the distance.
"2..." I see him gripping his gun with one hand, and with the other, grab onto my open hand.
"3..." They're getting a bit louder...I can start to make out words.
"4..." I hear the crowd saying "Where are they?" "Where'd they go?"
"5..." I feel him shaking. He's scared...
"6..." "They're gonna regret ever coming here!"
"7..." "Don't be scared" I told him. "We'll be free soon."
"8..." I can see the faint light of torches peeking behind the trees.
"9..." He leans in to kiss me one last time, then points the gun to his head. I do the same with mine.
"10." "Thank you...I love you. Goodbye."
lovesong
girls like girls ○ i've struggled with it for a few years now; acceptance. the truth is, i was always sort of sure, but in the recent years i've come to connect with my feelings even more. i hate how narrow sexuality is defined, i wish we could all understand each other better, i wish i could understand myself better. all i know is, i like girls, but i don't know how to tell anyone. i don't even know if i should.
the secret i keep ○ i have this one friend, and lately, i've been feeling things for her. i don't know what to do, or who to turn to. nobody knows yet. i feel like i should confide in her, maybe even confess my crush, but what if she takes it the wrong way? what if it ruins all that we have? she doesn't know how i feel whenever she's around. it just feels natural, it feels like paradise. i guess since summer is almost over, its now or never.
summertime sadness ○ i told her. i just blurted it out one day and immediately broke down. she was fine with it, but i can tell that there was a distance between us. it's hard. i didn't want this to happen, i just wanted her to understand. she says she doesn't feel the same way but that she'll always support me. thing is she hasn't responded in days to my texts. she's moving to another state in a week for university. i don't know what to do next.
Theus
A Letter to Luke (not the ATRL member):
The Paper Kites
"Bloom" Woodland (2011)
You might never read this, but hey you make my mornings brighter every time you show up at the store to drink a cup of coffee, even if we don’t talk. you don’t even see me and we have barely talked, I feel something for you and I just want to be close to you for some reason. Some months ago I gave up on love after people, well literally playing with my feelings, I mean I was supposed to date with a girl but instead she left me waiting for her as she flew to another country (or city I don’t even remember anymore) but for whatever reason you seem to be someone smart, lovely and cute which is something that I usually looking for someone but…
Norah Jones
"What Am I To You" Feels Like Home (2004)
What Am I to You? Am I just that guy that is one year older from you that you used to talk sometimes when you didn’t had anything better to do? Am I just the manager that feels something very deep for you and you don’t know yet that he keeps daydreaming’ with sweet fantasies of kissing and cuddling with you? What do I mean to you? .
Kodaline
"All I Want" In A Perfect World (2013)
If I ever say to you my what I feel for you, which is I probably I never going say to, and if you well don’t like me the way as I do (which is probably reality since you don’t even recognized me after studying years on the same school) All I want is to find someone like you, like I said before you are smart, lovely, friendly, adorable and well uggggggggh I don’t know you just make me feel that way for some reason, even though destiny is usually against my wishes all the time thank you for making me considering the idea of liking someone again. Thank you, you probably might never know this all but seriously having that sensation of love again means a lot to me even if never happened I just want to thank you for reminding me how good is that feeling without even saying a word! Reminds me of a friend that died earlier this year.
wesleywalrus
Story-Time With Wesley: Mid-life Crisis
“How Does It Feel To Be Fifty?
Laxatives in your dreams,
How Does It Feel?
Drying all up like prune.”
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HOW DOES IT FEEL TO BE FIFTY?
There once was a man named Stan, turning 50 years old was this man.
He was one of the cutest daddies of the land, even popular on ATRL, until he got a ban.
Pondering what to do, he had some drinks; a few, he realized he never even knew, what his entire life has been.
Outside the internet is a lively 'ol place, although with Stan not a trace,
because being the first to post celebrity news was a race.
Years and years gone by, he's on the verge to cry,
because he has never given the real world a try.
WHO AM I LIVING FOR?
Oh Stan, he wonders the meaning of life, he never had a husband or a wife.
Stacked up with bills from going under the knife, he's gone through half a life.
He tries to remember what he has been doing,
For God's sake, he has never traveled, gotten a tattooing, or gone canoeing.
He wonders: "What's this all for?"
Half of his life, gone like seashells by the shore.
He slams the door, wondering why his life, thus far has been so poor.
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“JI can see the writing on the wall,
I can't ignore this war,
At the end of it all,
Who am I living for?
At the end,
Who am I living for?”
“Everything was worth the fight
'Cause in the end, the road is long
But only 'cause it makes you strong
It's filled with peaks and twists and turns
Sometimes you have to learn to forget about it"
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FORGET
But in the end, Stan realizes he has half a life to go.
To go to the boundaries of the Earth, to see many shows.
Life may hit a plateau, but there is always room to grow.
Stan could travel to the Aurora Lights, to see them glow,
To even visit Mount Everest, to see the shiny snow.
Because, Stan realizes, in the end, the more positive you are,
the more you learn to forget, move forward, and be a shining star.
Sam
Chapter I • Almost Famous
I'm so excited, things are finally happening for me. I've
signed an amazing record deal and my songs are actually
on the radio. I heard my voice on the radio! I still can't
believe it. I've dreamed of this for... I can't even say how
long. But this is only the beginning. My team has warned
me not to get too overwhelmed. But it's just so crazy
when you have people coming up to you in the street,
asking for your autograph. Like... me? You want my
autograph? I'm still not used to that. But I'm going to
have to get used to it. I just don't want it to ever be over.
xxxx
Chapter III • Price of Fame
Everything is going wrong. How could my latest single
flop? I worked so hard on it. Now I'm the laughing stock
of the industry, my label wants to change direction of
the album I've been working on for over half a year now...
my fans aren't even supporting me as much as they used
to. I wish I didn't take them for granted. I wish I had've
helped my sister with her mortgage instead of buying a
diamond grill. I just wish everything was back to how it
used to be. Privacy actually meant something once. I
just want to be normal again. I want to be free.
Chapter II • Iggy SZN
Scored my third consecutive Billboard Hot 100 #1 today.
What can I say? I'm just that good. They love me. And by
they, I mean everyone. My fans are so annoying. I can't
even leave my penthouse without having to sign a bunch
of autographs. I wish they'd just give me some space and
understand that I don't have time to sign their **** and
make it to the Today show for an interview with a debut
live performance of my new single. But this is what I
wanted. Life is great. I'm on top of the world right now.
What more could I ask for?
xxxx
Fame, cars, lights stay on you
Cameras flashing for you
I'd trade it all
On the way to happiness What's the price of fame?
Scene.
Prologue "Am I going to be okay, doc?" Those words echoed in the large hospital room. Karen Williams lay nervously on the bed as her doctor goes over her test results. Too nervous to look him directly in the eyes, she looks out the window overlooking the river. Behind it were a sea of trees so red and orange that it's almost like they were ablaze.
"Karen I'm... I'm sorry, but your cancer has come back." Those words cut like a knife, and she had hoped and prayed she would never hear them after battling her cancer into remission almost a decade ago. Her doctor fought back tears as he continued, "The cancer is spreading to your brain... and you have a month left to live.
How could you even reply to such news? Karen sat up, dumbfounded and numb to everything that just happened. "There is an experimental treatment we can try, but because of your age, it would leave you incredibly weak..." the doctor tried to explain, before Karen interrupted, "No. I'm 84, I've lived a long enough life. You save that for someone younger who really needs it."
Karen got dressed and the doctor gave her some medicine to help alleviate her headaches. He asked her if she would like him to call up her family and tell them the news. "Why make them upset over the inevitable? I'll tell them myself, when I'm ready." she replied.
Chapter One - The House That Built Me
Her car slowed to a stop in the old dirt driveway. Putting the car in park, Helen stepped out and breathed in the crisp Fall air. Here she was, back at her childhood home for the first time in decades. It looked virtually untouched by time - everything was exactly as she remembered.
She nervously walked up the front steps and knocked on the door; she knew it was owned by a stranger now as her parents had long since passed and neither she or her siblings wanted to take it over. A woman around her daughter Christine's age answered the door. "Hi there, may I help you?"
Helen took a deep breath, before explaining her situation. "Ma'am, I know you don't know me from Adam, but those handprints on the front steps are mine." She began to explain how she grew up here, spending all 18 years of her childhood in this little countryside house. Then, with a tear in her eye, she said "I have a month left to live. My cancer is spreading to my brain. I wanted to come back here one last time..."
She couldn't finish her sentence. The woman was now crying and invited her in without another word. She pulled herself together and said "Take as long as you need." Helen walked in and the memories came flooding back. "I won't take nothing but a memory."
Chapter Two - A Moment Like This ding-dong. ding-dong. Helen swore she would hear the sound of that doorbell in her sleep tonight, it was ringing so much. Every time she opened the door, another family member came in, many of them holding a delicious looking side dish to go along with the big meal.
The women all gathered in the kitchen, catching up on their lives and helping with the big meal. Most of the men were crowded around the TV in the living room, watching the big game, and the kids were running around playing tag in the backyard. It was Thanksgiving Day, and Helen was thankful to be surrounded by love today.
Around 6PM, it was finally time to eat. Everyone gathered in the dining room, the table was massive, yet everyone fit comfortably. Helen sat at the end of the table and watched as all her family ate and talked, smiling and laughing. It was then she realized, this was her legacy. All of her kids have families of their own, and even though she would be leaving them all behind, Helen knew that she had done her job raising such a beautiful family.
A single tear rolled down her cheek as she smiled and looked around. Three generations of beautiful children and grandchildren who wouldn't have been here without her. This moment is one she'd never forget.
Chapter Three - Somewhere Over The Rainbow
Two weeks later, a few weeks before Christmas, her family had gathered again. The day before, Helen had gone to the doctor for a checkup and found out her condition was worsening. She went home and rejected any treatments. She knew she was ready. She prayed that she would have one more day, to say goodbye.
In the center of her livingroom, she lay on her daybed. She just told her family, once everyone showed up, that her cancer had returned and that she had kept it a secret because she didn't want to worry them. Tears were falling on the carpet like raindrops. Karen smiled. "Don't worry about me. I'm ready." she said. One by one, her family came forward and she said her goodbyes. She had never given so many hugs in one day.
Finally, everyone stepped back and Helen lay her head back down on the pillow. She looked at her family and smiled. "Don't be sad. Smile. I'll always be around, watching over you. Somewhere over the rainbow, where blue birds fly, you'll find me. I love you all." She said, and closed her eyes for the last time.
Hello, I'm Niko, and I used to be a Nerd that was bullied. It was hard, very hard. No one will accept you, be your friend, invite to parties, you are practically treated like a piece of trash, while the "Jocks" that play Football are treated like Gods. Being a Nerd sucks, and I myself experience that, because you aren't going to lower yourself, or change yourself for these kids you don't care about, but you also have to take the crap that comes with it. People used to bully me for my good grades, how kind I was, and even how I held my hands together because it was "Try-hard" and a "snob" when all I was doing was just sitting. So here are my tips for you, to the person who is being rightfully bullied for being smart, this is for you.
Hope
Listen, you need to keep your head up, their is hope. One day, all of these people won't matter, you aren't in school forever. One day.. These people will look up to you, you are in the future. Being smart and being a "nerd" might seem like a negative thing right now, but later in life, you will know that it's an extremely positive thing. Ignore those stupid kids who make fun of you for being you, they are just jealous that they aren't as intelligent as you are. . One day your dreams will make sense to people, and they will admire that you were a nerd.
I'll spread my wings, and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
One day you will make a change in the world, lift your head up and move on, because what they say won't matter in 20 years when you are a multi-millionaire and they can barely get into a job at McDonalds.
Revenge
Fight them motherf**ers. Don't let them walk all over you like a pile of dirt, you are more then that. If you prove that you are strong enough to fight back, they might back off. If you just let them make fun of you, and you are weak and just taking it like shots, they will continue to do it. But if you fight back, and show you can be just as mean and strong as they are, they might think "oh this guy is forreal". Use this song as a strategy guide, wreck his car, break his heart, and make him regret ever messing with you.
I dug my key into the side
Of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive,
Carved my name into his leather seats...
I took a Louisville slugger to both headlights,
What kinda slay. If you do this they will NEVER mess with you again, I promise you.
Acceptance
Accept You. Accept the situation. Acceptance is Key
You need to realize that you are unique, but that doesn't make you ugly. You need to realize that you are different from the "average" person, but that doesn't make you weird. You are beautiful. You need to accept that people are not open to accept "nerds", to them at your age, they are weird people. They "do homework for fun" and "stay at home and do nothing". But that's not the truth. You need to accept them too, for what they are. They are wrong, but accept that they are wrong. That will make you feel better, I promise. If you accept them, and the situation, as much as you accept yourself.. you will be on the right road.
I am beautiful no matter what they say.
Words can't bring me down.
To all your friends you're delirious,
So consumed in all your doom.
Trying hard to fill the emptiness.
The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone.
is that the way it is?
This song is so true to the words I've given you. You are truly beautiful, not matter what those jocks that bully you say. Hold your head up, because one day they will be jealous of yo, and your success. Good luck my friend.
Sincerely, Niko <3
Kitt
‘I’m getting ready to have a child with my husband.’
Quote:
Originally posted by challenge one ◬ homemaker goals ⁄ bat for lashes, 'priscilla'
“It’s something I don’t talk much about, but becoming a mother is one of the most important honors I want to have some day. Not only that, but the whole traditional works: the soul mate husband, home, children and journeys in between those milestones. It’s a private yet no lighthearted topic for me. But I’m such an ambitious and criticizing person that that whole ideal has become this full fledged fantasy that’s only in arms reach. Will I be an effective mother or will I not be able to handle it? Can I focus on myself and my career and still find true love after? Will I ever even find love? Can I have both cakes and eat them too?”
This prompt served to be of sentimental value considering it's literally one of the personal aspirations I talked about during our "Me" challenge, so I've found it apt to use this opportunity to fictionally fulfill that fantasy and go full circle.
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Quote:
Sweet roll tart candy jelly gummies yadda yadda yadda ya.
Heaven Lyrics
Yesterday you were in front of me
Woke up this morning,
All of a sudden you're a memory
Oh, if life is as short as they say it is,
I guess we'll meet again sooner than we think we will
They say a picture says a thousand words
But I would trade a thousand pictures to hear one of yours
And I've been saying prayers like I was writing you letters
'cause if heaven's far like I think it is
You wouldn't get them
I know heaven must be beautiful right now,
Since they got you babe
Since they got you babe
I know Heaven must be beautiful right now,
Since they got you babe
Since they took you babe
They say that god is full of mysteries
Sometimes I wonder if you tell him that you're missing me
'Cause I miss you every day
Like they took summer away
Like they took color away
And this grey
Needs to get the hell away from me
And I'm jealous of the angels
'Cause they see you every day
And I see you when I'm dreaming
But it doesn't feel the same
I know my heart is broken
But you can have it anyway,
If I could only see you again, again
I know heaven must be beautiful right now,
Since they got you babe
Since they got you babe
I know heaven must be beautiful right now,
Since they got you babe
Since they took you babe
Give my life for one last time with you
With you
Give my life for one last time with you
With you
Got my space suit on
Gonna blast off
Take a vacation to where you are
Hoping heaven ain't all that far
You passed me by on a shooting star
Cause I wish so bad
One last chance
Take me back to the photograph
I close my eyes and I feel you laughter
But all I got is a frame and a glasses
Selfishness?
Should've made a room for the both of us
Loneliness
I'm not lost but I've got no direction
Parachute gone and I'm falling fast
My heart stopped but I'm still breathing
So numb but still I'm feeling
The less I look
The more I'm seeing
I just lost my hero
I know heaven must be beautiful right now,
Since they got you babe
Since they got you babe
I know heaven must be beautiful right now,
Since they got you babe
Since they took you babe
Sweet roll tart candy jelly gummies yadda yadda.
As a young woman and early on in our relationship, we had an unplanned pregnancy and the life changing decision to have an abortion. It was heartbreaking, eye opening, and forced me to to reexamine and prioritize my life. As much as I knew I wanted to be with my husband and someday start a family, I needed to focus on myself first so I could be prepared for that fate on all areas.
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All Things Go Lyrics
I had to reinvent, I put the V in vent
I put the heat in vents, man I been competin' since
I look beyond what people sayin', and I see intent
Then I just sit back and decipher, what they really meant
Cherish these nights, cherish these people
Life is a movie, but there will never be a sequel
And I'm good with that, as long as I'm peaceful
As long as 7 years from now, I'm taking my daughter to preschool
Cherish these days, man do they go quick
Just yesterday, I swear it was o' six
Ten years ago, that's when you proposed
I look down, yes I suppose
All things go, all things go
All things go, all things go
I feel one minute, yeah we got it then it's gone
While we keep waiting for a moment to live for
So can't nobody ever tell me that I'm wrong
Cause I'mma ride I'm with you still the night is young
We keep goin', we go, we go, we go
We wake back up and do it all again
We know, we know, say **** the world, we ridin' 'til the end
When all is said and done, look at what we've become
I just want you to know that I did it for you
I lost my little cousin to a senseless act of violence
His sister said, he wanted to stay with me, but I didn't invite him
Why didn't he ask, or am I just buggin'?
Cause since I got fame, they don't act the same
Even though they know, that I love 'em
Family ties, broken before me, ****** tryna kill him, he ain't even call me
And that's the reflection of me, yes I get it, I get it, it was all me
I pop a pill and remember the look in his eyes, the last day he saw me
All things go, all things go
All things go, all things go
I feel one minute, yeah we got it then it's gone
While we keep waiting for a moment to live for
So can't nobody ever tell me that I'm wrong
Cause I'mma ride I'm with you still the night is young
We keep goin', we go, we go, we go
We wake back up and do it all again
We know, we know, say **** the world, we ridin' 'til the end
When all is said and done, look at what we've become
I just want you to know that I did it for you
Let me make this clear I'm not difficult, I'm just about my business
I'm not into fake industry parties, and fake agendas
Rock with people for how they make me feel not what they give me
Even the ones that hurt me the most, I still show forgiveness
I love my mother more than life itself, and that's a fact
I'd give it all, if somehow, I could just rekindle that
She never understands, why I'm so overprotective
The more I work, the more I feel like, somehow they're neglected
I want 'Caiah to go to college, just to say "We did it!"
My child with Aaron, would've been sixteen, any minute
So in some ways I feel like 'Caiah, is the both of them
It's like he's 'Caiah's little angel, looking over him
And I know Jelani will always love me, and I'll always love him
And I'm just his little sister not Nicki Minaj when I'm around him
Yeah we did it, let's leave this imprint
Just finished writing, this is the Pinkprint
All things go, all things go
All things go, all things go
Sweet roll tart candy jelly gummies yadda yadda yadda ya.
I worked my ass of with him being my avid supporter throughout the way. Our life was nothing like it was before but the haunting memory and self-questioning of my choice was always a silent motivator. Dreams of getting a second chance with a better life for my family is the sole reason I do this. Everything I do is for them.
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All I Need Lyrics
Kissing your lips, kissing you top to toe
Wishing for this, hoping for all we know
Hearing you breathe, you leave and return
Oh, how we take, how we give we learn
Taking my time, seeing the signs
Letting you guide me home
Watching you grow, letting you know
You are my only
You bring me hope when I can't breathe
You give me love, you're all I need
Slowly I'm holding you closely
You're wrapped in my arms and you're inside me
Tell you my fears, telling you everything
Telling the truth to you gives me wings
Free with my words, free as a bird
I am flying high looking at you
Everything new, you are my life
You bring me hope when I can't breathe
You give me love, you're all I need
Slowly I'm holding you closely
So happy to carry you inside me
I'll feed you, love, and I hope it's enough
To inspire you through suffering, holding you up
I'll feed you, love, and I hope it's enough
To inspire you through suffering, holding you up
Sweet roll tart candy jelly gummies yadda yadda.
I've conquered my passion and built my foundation. All the sweat, blood, and tears was all worth this moment. Just the other day I was hearing your heartbeat and now you're here in my arms. I hope to raise you with unconditional love and instill the same principles to you that got us here.
My fight with Buizel took longer than I expected, which is why I have 2:02, not that it's a big deal.
Kyle.
