Sorry but I"m so mad and pissed right now. Remember "D"?
That guy I met on Myspace and how things didn't work out? Because all he wanted was to "make-out" and not take the time to get to know me before anything? Well...
He was on AIM and of course he was being r.etarded with this stupid ass comments?
When can we hang out?
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hang out?
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Am I more important than HW?
Am I?
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So we can't hang out now?
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So when can we hang out?
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I'm sad
I'm depressed
I wanna die
I'm going to commit suicide.
bye
Okay
I won't kill myself
but we have to hangout (WTF?????)
is that a deal? (WTF??????)
deal?
Hangout, don't committ suicide?
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And he has the ****ing brain to go tell his counselor about me (oh but what DOES he know about me?) and his counselor says I HAVE SOME ISSUES AND I NEED TO BE WATCHED OUT FOR?
WTF?
I was so pissed. If you saw a typical conversation from him, you would understand this, but I just got outraged. And then he leaves 100 of these on my Myspace.
"your very mean and cruel person thanks for hurting me and making me cry and i hope everyone reads this that kevin your a player and liar and thats sad that kissing scared you away you will always be single and your shallow so thanks for hurting me just like everyone else does to me"
This guy needs help fast. No wonder he HAS no friends! No wonder why all his 3 other boyfriends dumped him.
You don't start making out on the first date, let alone force yourself to make out with me. (I'm not like that duh? I'm new to this gay stuff, I haven't accepted it yet)
And he has the ****ing guts to try to make me make out with him and all. That is a big turn off. Yes I do fantasy about it and say I want it, but that isn't real life.
Before I make out with anyone, I have to know them first and actually "fall" in love with them. He is ****ing nuts and I'm done with this guy. I don't want to sound mean, since this ain't me at all. I've never been this mean in my life to someone, but he pushed me past the border.
I blocked him from AIM, MSN, and Myspace. And I had the f'ing nerve to give him my number, do I have to change my number now? Or should I find a way to block his number somehow? I will have to go to Verizon for this.
I learned one thing from this disastrous "hook-up" over the internet. Don't rush into stupid things like this. Before I say we are bf's, we are going to get to know each other. We can joke around with sex yes, but we have to realize that we need to be FRIENDS first. We should've just hung out and stuff.
I'll be honest, after the first "date" I felt happy and loved, but then after that day, it just went down hill after I realized he wanted just to make out with me. And that is it.
And when he doesn't get his way, he says he's sad and wants to kill himself. And I need help?
Every gay guy goes through this stage I"m going through. It isn't like a gay guys first realizes he likes dick better then says, "Oh I'm gay, whoo hoo, let's find a boyfriend, I am GAY"
No...they go through a stage of denial, then not accepting it, and then eventually they do accept it. WTF? He is outta my life...
I can't believe I let him put his stupid muther f'ing lips on me. Sick.
He just was not my type and now he has the guts to go tell HIS counselor about me (when we barely know each other) and yet, i don't have one???
Oh should I mention he doesn't drive? He won't ever get his license ever. And he has to have his mother drive him everywhere and he's 21? I understand he has Autism but driving has nothing to do with not being able to social well. Big turn off dude. And if you have Myspace, go look at his videos? And I need help?????
Sorry but this just frustates me. He thinks he's all that and he knows a lot about relationships. I don't get turned off by kissing. I get turned off by people who take advantage of you. Goodbye....
Lot's of love,
Kevin.
(sorry for being pissed)