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Originally posted by Techii
True, true... :/
It was real bad for me though... I didn't like leaving the house, meeting new people was a burden because it was more people I had to stay on my toes around, I didn't go out on weekends with my friends because I was afraid to run into certain people at school who always gave me looks as if they knew, afraid that they would say something and thus creating even more awkwardness between me and the little group of friends I had. I basically changed my whole personality to be more "masculine" to the point when I didn't even know what my personality was like anymore. It was so HARD sis! Just talking about it hurts tbh. And to think all that came from the ****ing bagatelle that I liked boys. Basically wasted what was supposed to be a really happy and exciting time in my life.
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This is pretty much the same as me.
I wished I was straight my whole life, but since coming out of the closet (very recently), I wouldn't want to be anyone else.
I'm starting to see my friends again, I've gotten my confidence back, and I even got a job! It's easy to get lost from reality and your life and those around you when you pretend to be something/someone your not for years, but it feels so good to finally be myself around the people I loved. I wasted most of my teen years hiding from everyone, but I'm 19 now and starting to live again, so it's all good, a long and hard learning experience that I'm better off for.