[satellites.™]

Originally posted by KoreanDream

This was a tumblr post I created a few weeks ago:

What has happened between us? We’ve known each other since 2006. You and I were only casual friends for our first two school years of knowing each other, but we still enjoyed being around each other. We had tons of laugh together, and we used to talk to each other pretty often. Then, in our 3rd year of college, you and I got really…close. We started talking to each other ALL the time. We’d eat lunch together, go out to dinners together, text, call, and message each other, and talk ALL the time. Then from 2009 to late last year, you and I told each other EVERYTHING. You knew about all of the drama with friends, all of the drama with my family, all about my family, all about my friends, all about my thoughts, dreams, hopes…and…you knew EVERYTHING. It was the same the other way around, too. I knew everything about you, your family, your friends, your thoughts, your dreams, your hopes…just…everything. You started dating HER last year but we were still close. I had nothing against your relationship, but I was…jealous. I was jealous because I liked you. But I let it go for you two to be together. My feelings faded away pretty quickly, but why did our friendship too? You and I were closer than friends. We were like siblings. In fact, we were like the same person. We knew EVERYTHING about each other. EVERYTHING. Then you just stopped talking to me, and after I tried talking to you, things got worse. You seemed to resent me for even accusing you of ignoring me. After she left you for that other guy, I wanted to ask if you were okay, but I didn’t think I could. I felt like there was no way to because we weren’t talking. Now I realize you must have felt like you couldn’t talk to me, because after that big fight in February, you told me that I hadn’t been there for you when she had left you. We haven’t talked in 4 months, and it’s killing me. I still have all of the texts and messages you sent me, because I can’t bring myself to delete them. That’s all I have left of you anymore. But things were starting to look up because I never talked about how I felt with anyone. I just pretended, after we fought and I said our friendship was over, that we had never been friends. But now that I’ve been revisiting it with one of my friends because she’s going through a similar situation, I’m hurting all over again. But what I hate most is not knowing if you care. I always thought you cared about our friendship a ton, like I did and still do, because you always used to promise me that I was one of your 5 real friends, that I was special to you, that we would be friends forever. It was dumb but I remember all of that. Now it’s gone and it’s heartbreaking to know that I still remember those things and I still care but I don’t think you do. But what hurts the most now is seeing you. Whenever we see each other at school, we both go silent. Just today, you were skipping down the hallway jokingly, but when you saw me and I saw you, you stopped and went silent. I did, too. I don’t know if I looked sad, but I saw a hint of sadness in your face. Or maybe I’m wrong and you DON’T care anymore. That’s what’s killing me. I don’t know if you care and I don’t know if I should even try to fix this.

But I know that you almost killed yourself. I know that you hate your parents and feel like they only give you money and no love or anything. I know that you and your sister aren’t close but you wish that you two were. I know that you feel that you can relate to girls better than you can guys. I know that you’re actually way more manly than you can seem. I know that you hate showing emotion because you don’t see the point. I know that you feel like no one will ever love you. I know that you’ve been hurt time and time again and you now close yourself off. But I know that you’ve become someone different than who I used to know you as.

So now I stand here, not wanting to see no more. I wish I could just blind myself, now. I want to talk to you again and see if we can fix this, but I feel like there’s no reason to. Last time I tried to apologize to you, you didn’t respond. Even though my friend told me to just say hi to you and try to start fresh, I feel like you’d ignore me or make fun of me if I did. And your friends hate me anyway. And even if they didn’t, I feel like you may not care anymore and that I’m the only one that cares. And that if you don’t care, then I’ll make a fool out of myself. But I also feel like, if we did become friends again, that things could never be the same again. What’s worse is that we’re BOTH going to Korea, to the same university. I remember you and I choosing to do that last summer because we wanted to stick together and make the move to a new country easier on each other. Now we don’t even talk so the pain will have to follow me to Korea.

I approached him two days after posting this (he never saw it, though) and asked if we could talk, and he said he never wanted to be my friend again and that it was dumb of me to think he would want to. I then found out that he had rebuked his Korean exchange right after we stopped being friends in February so he could stay in America once I went. But it's closure so I'm not sad. I just thought he was better than that.

You trying to hurt me tonight.

This is such a sad story, it should be made into a movie.

HOW DARE HE TREAT YOU LIKE THAT?

[Chemist]

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Society is a bitch

[ifyouseekLEM]

My heart goes out to all the stories about their parent's saying that someone better not be gay.

One of the most beautiful things my father ever said to me was that "Even though you'll go to Hell (), I want you to know that I love you, and I just want you to be happy whether it's with a man or a woman."

[AnimalCannibalAJ]

I was in 8th grade, my family was struggling with money problems. I tried to help by working, I got a job as a singer on a cafe bar. I didn't tell my parent I worked, but wen they found out my dad yelled at me and said "This is your way of helping?! You can't sing for ****! Why don't you get your ass home and actually do something with your life!!.... and then he added this "You, you're part of this big problem you know! Having a child was a big ****ing mistake.

That really hurt my feelings, I still remember that day, and just break crying.. moved out 2 years later with my aunt cuz of the verbal abuse I get with my mom and dad... i know they did not want to hurt my feelings, they were just having problems.. deep down i love them, but i dont know if they love me... especially cuz im they're "gay / bisexual" kid...


#oops i accidentally pressed enter before i was done

EDIT: Oh... and I love your posts, your post are always interesting and entertaining

[KoreanDream]

Originally posted by satellites™

You trying to hurt me tonight.

This is such a sad story, it should be made into a movie.

HOW DARE HE TREAT YOU LIKE THAT?

The thing is that I haven't been sad since he told me a few weeks ago that he never wanted to be friends again. I'm just over it. I guess I thought he was better than that. But "Best Thing I Never Had" has been my ANTHEM for this situation.

[ManDown]

Originally posted by HollywoodForever

It wasn't something someone said to me, but it was something I said/did that probably hurt the most. Back in January (of this year) I was going over to my boyfriends place to spend the night. I was of course drunk as usual. He also had a few of his friends over too for part of the night. Anyways, I had misplaced my phone and borrowed his to call mine to find it. I had accidentally called his sister instead... and when she asked me who I was.... I told her "I'm your brothers boyfriend." At that time his family didn't know he was gay.... and they didn't take the news very lightly either. I believe I hung up on her, and eventually gave up and decided to look for my phone in the morning... my next memory after that was laying on his couch. He came up to me and put a blanket over me, and the look on his face.... has haunted me for months. He was angry of course... but broke down when tell me he never wanted to see me again the next morning.

My best friend told me to not beat myself up over it, and that I wasn't myself that night.... and some good came out of it, and that I quit drinking. But, I don't think I will be able to forgive myself for along time. It goes against things I stand for - and that is outing people. Just the thought - that I could have been responible for him doing something wreckless like commiting suicide, or causing himself harm.... hasn't sat right. Even today.... it still stings that I ruined one of my best relationships.

I generally don't let things other people say about me bother me. But when my own actions cause someone else that I care about greatly terrible pain & suffering..... it destroys me just as much.

Sorry for the long essay.

I am so so sorry. I've been in a situation like that before, and the feelings are just indescribable. It's worse than almost any other feeling in the world. I accidentally outted one of my exes, and he was suicidal over it, and I felt like it was my fault. But I'm glad you turned a terrible thing into a positive thing. It wasn't your fault.

[MAKSIM]

Originally posted by AnimalCannibalAJ

I'm gonna share two

I was in 8th grade, my family was struggling with money problems. I tried to help by working, I got a job as a singer on a cafe bar. I didn't tell my parent I worked, but wen they found out my dad yelled at me and said "This is your way of helping?! You can't sing for ****! Why don't you get your ass home and actually do something with your life!!.... and then he added this "You, you're part of this big problem you know! Having a child was a big ****ing mistake.

That really hurt my feelings, I moved out 2 years later with my aunt cuz of the verbal abuse I get with my mom and dad... i know they did not want to hurt my feelings, they were just

Wow... Youre a great person

[If U Seek Amy]

i love these stories and im so sympathetic for everyone here. I really love most everyone here. Such nice people and I really am here for everyone if needed!

[BTrisc]

Originally posted by Chemist

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Society is a bitch

Reveal your abusive, Colombian history, Luis!

[Knix]

Originally posted by ifyouseekLEM

My heart goes out to all the stories about their parent's saying that someone better not be gay.

One of the most beautiful things my father ever said to me was that "Even though you'll go to Hell (), I want you to know that I love you, and I just want you to be happy whether it's with a man or a woman."

now bitch, let someone ANYONE try that hell **** with me.

I do not play with my pocket king james book.

[Skin]

My GRANDMA said YOU LIKE BOYS, and I cried in denial.

Kiiii

[KoreanDream]

Originally posted by AnimalCannibalAJ

I'm gonna share two

I was in 8th grade, my family was struggling with money problems. I tried to help by working, I got a job as a singer on a cafe bar. I didn't tell my parent I worked, but wen they found out my dad yelled at me and said "This is your way of helping?! You can't sing for ****! Why don't you get your ass home and actually do something with your life!!.... and then he added this "You, you're part of this big problem you know! Having a child was a big ****ing mistake.

That really hurt my feelings, I moved out 2 years later with my aunt cuz of the verbal abuse I get with my mom and dad... i know they did not want to hurt my feelings, they were just

I'm so sorry. I remember my dad telling me that I was a part of the problem when he and my mom had this huge fight. I felt so bad but he assured me right after that he had never meant to say that and that he was so, so sorry. I forgave him soon after.

Originally posted by ifyouseekLEM

My heart goes out to all the stories about their parent's saying that someone better not be gay.

One of the most beautiful things my father ever said to me was that "Even though you'll go to Hell (), I want you to know that I love you, and I just want you to be happy whether it's with a man or a woman."

My parents said the same to my brother and I. Minus the "though you'll go to Hell" part. They've always given us complete support regardless of what we've wanted to do.

[satellites.™]

Originally posted by L/\DY G/\G/\

Posted on my formspring 10 months back. One of my best friends, lets say "emma" told me she liked me. This was my response "ugh...im really not into a relationship right now and I dont think im the relationship kind of person" At this time I didnt want to tell her im gay so I just told her that. I then told my other friend lets say "Chris" that its going to be weird with "emma" liking me. Anyway, "Chris" told "emma" the only reason I wasnt going out with her was because I said she is fat and ugly when I never said that. He turned her against me for a few months but I was able to become friends with her again and I was so surprised when I found out that chris was telling all these lies and trying to get people to hate me. Once emma started to not like me then every one in my social circle abandoned me and sided with her. It made for a horrible summer...this is one of the many formspring messages I got because of it.back when I had one.

This message was a response to me defending emma on formspring after one of the people left a comment saying shes ugly. I defended her but I got so much **** for it because apparently by posting it I was just trying to cause drama but that wasnt my intentions at all in the first place.

See, you should just sit everyone down and spill the tea.

[ifyouseekLEM]

Originally posted by AlabasterFierce

now bitch, let someone ANYONE try that hell **** with me.

I do not play with my pocket king james book.

Spill that tea boo.

[Georges]

I was in 6th grade when it started, i really had a crush on this girl, like love, she was that sweet little chick that everyone liked, but i found out that she's the biggest backstabber, she backstabbed me (we were sitting next to each other for the entire schoolyear) talking to her friends how i was fat and a loser, some bitch had the courtesy to tell it in my face, i was in shock since i know that we won't be BF and GF, she is such a bitch,i just sat in my house, thinking for 3 hours why she did this to me. I learned love hurts and u never expect what will happen+ i have a terrible choice of girlfriends, also that chick grew uglier, that must be karma

[Deuces]

Originally posted by AlabasterFierce

ive gotten into 2 fights in highschool and I didnt start either one but I also aint let them beany head ass kids lay a finger on me and my nice ass clothes. one thing I cant take is physical altercation.

Exactly. I do not handle getting touched well. I remember in middle school it would always be these group of kids who wanted to start ****. I remember playing Football. I wasn't the best and I made this amazing catch. Ch..the other team got pissed and started getting physical...tell me why my ass was seconds from getting suspended. I don't handle getting touched well AT ALL!

[Chemist]

Originally posted by ifyouseekLEM

My heart goes out to all the stories about their parent's saying that someone better not be gay.

One of the most beautiful things my father ever said to me was that "Even though you'll go to Hell (), I want you to know that I love you, and I just want you to be happy whether it's with a man or a woman."

at that quote

I would never come out to my father, he's so anti gay, he's all the time mocking them and I don't wanto to disappoint him,I'm like his favorite kid

[ifyouseekLEM]

Originally posted by KoreanDream

My parents said the same to my brother and I. Minus the "though you'll go to Hell" part. They've always given us complete support regardless of what we've wanted to do.

[satellites.™]

Originally posted by Wildhope

that my sexual abuse was my fault and I caused it

No they did not say that?

[satellites.™]

Originally posted by Ðeucés

No BUT that is what hurts. Had it been a lie..I would have been hurt but not as much. Since it was true I was really affected.

AHHHHHHHHHHH