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Discussion: Archived: Random Thoughts (#1)
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Originally posted by Jurred
Ugh. I feel like I'm friends with a bunch of pretentious, stuck-up people caught up in their own little worlds and have no idea what anything is like outside of their own little worlds. It sucks being 21 and feeling like I'm so much more mature than everyone else around me. I really hate the fact that I'm 21, already have my own full-time job, apartment, car, paying for my own school tuition, etc... All because life put me in this circumstance. I really feel like so much of the time I feel so alone, and without anyone to talk to, because of my age and what I'm doing with my life. ****, its not even that I think these people are stuck-up... In reality I'm just jealous that these people get to still have their fun and do what they want while I'm in a position that I have to work to survive. I miss having a family.... I miss being normal.... I just want things to get back to the way they were. Sadly, I have to resign myself to the fact that things will NEVER be normal again. I just really, really, REALLY need a friend who gets me. I'm sorry to anyone who had to read this drunken rant..
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Awe Im sorry. I know what you mean, like when I was a lil kid I use to always say I can't wait to be a big kid. Now that I'm 17 sometimes I sit back and think man I really wish I was a certain age sometimes. Older a person gets more responsibility I guess.  do u have a gf/bf? It might make you feel more full inside. And give you those butterfly feelings
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Member Since: 5/23/2010
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Originally posted by Bdawg
Lmao I'm to scared i would get banned.
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That would suck.
But, I think it should be brackets 5-6 6-7 etc. 4-5 should not be posted at all.
I would do it but I have class and hold myself to a high standard.
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Originally posted by kisuke
wow thats horrible
however you shouldn't really take what your brothers friends said to heavy you dont need them and they wont be paying your bills later anyway.
you might want to confront your brother in private later since as mean and stupid as he was. he is gonna be your brother for the rest of your life  |
Kisuke, I knew you were human
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Member Since: 2/9/2008
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Originally posted by GeezusHaberdash
I just came across Ivan's brother story while skimming.
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What happened? I must have missed it. Link?
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Originally posted by Bdawg
Awe Im sorry. I know what you mean, like when I was a lil kid I use to always say I can't wait to be a big kid. Now that I'm 17 sometimes I sit back and think man I really wish I was a certain age sometimes. Older a person gets more responsibility I guess. do u have a gf/bf? It might make you feel more full inside. And give you those butterfly feelings |
LOL, this is another problem. I'm gay, but none of my friends know that. NO ONE does. I have no idea how anyone would take to it, and am scared shitless to tell a soul. I have no family (at least around here), and have no idea how my friends will take to it. Its terrifying for me to even think about it, the last thing I want is to be completely deserted.
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Member Since: 2/9/2008
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Originally posted by iLays
OMG all this time i though Apl.De.Ap was tha one with tha epic facial features and beautiful hair,not tha one with that piece of **** on top of his head
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Member Since: 2/9/2008
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Originally posted by XoEarlyMorningoX
There isn't a Jamba Juice in AL. Tell me about it ?
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Don't let whatever he says fool you. Jamba Juice is overrated. I never finish mine because I get sick of them and they're too big.
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Member Since: 5/23/2010
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Originally posted by eli's_rhythm
What happened? I must have missed it. Link? |
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Member Since: 5/23/2010
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Originally posted by eli's_rhythm
Don't let whatever he says fool you. Jamba Juice is overrated. I never finish mine because I get sick of them and they're too big. |
I can handle bigger things and I doubt I would get sick of it after only drinking it once.
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Member Since: 2/9/2008
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Originally posted by Jurred
Ugh. I feel like I'm friends with a bunch of pretentious, stuck-up people caught up in their own little worlds and have no idea what anything is like outside of their own little worlds. It sucks being 21 and feeling like I'm so much more mature than everyone else around me. I really hate the fact that I'm 21, already have my own full-time job, apartment, car, paying for my own school tuition, etc... All because life put me in this circumstance. I really feel like so much of the time I feel so alone, and without anyone to talk to, because of my age and what I'm doing with my life. ****, its not even that I think these people are stuck-up... In reality I'm just jealous that these people get to still have their fun and do what they want while I'm in a position that I have to work to survive. I miss having a family.... I miss being normal.... I just want things to get back to the way they were. Sadly, I have to resign myself to the fact that things will NEVER be normal again. I just really, really, REALLY need a friend who gets me. I'm sorry to anyone who had to read this drunken rant..
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You're a ****ing articulate drunk.
I'm intrigued.
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Originally posted by kisuke
i can be such a mean person at times |
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Member Since: 2/9/2008
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Originally posted by Jurred
LOL, this is another problem. I'm gay, but none of my friends know that. NO ONE does. I have no idea how anyone would take to it, and am scared shitless to tell a soul. I have no family (at least around here), and have no idea how my friends will take to it. Its terrifying for me to even think about it, the last thing I want is to be completely deserted.
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Tell them.
Make new friends. Friends who actually know you/would accept you. You'll feel like you've found new life.
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Member Since: 2/9/2008
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Originally posted by TheMusicProphet
Sorry girls. I had to let these tears run dry.
He told me in front of his friends and my friends that I was a pathetic loser, worthless, a sad excuse of a human being, I'm not going to make it in life, and that I will never live up to my parents expectations.
I wanted to punch him so bad, but I resisted the temptation. He also told all his friends that I'm probably just a ****** who goes sucking off all my friends (not true at all, the ****** part is though). What does that ****er know about my life? Nothing.
What if he knows? I'm so scared.
I felt so embarrassed, ashamed, I just wanted to fall and die right there and then. I felt like my insides were about to explode.
They all LAUGHED at me. LAUGHED!
I just ran away.
My night was spoiled. I have never been embarrassed like this. Especially, by my own brother. My own blood. I thought we were cool. I guess I was wrong.
They LAUGHED and MOCKED me.
UGH!
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I want to give you a hug.
I've never felt betrayed by my own siblings, but I can imagine--I've been in similar situations with friends.
I hope you're sleeping well right now and I hope you feel good tomorrow.
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Member Since: 2/9/2008
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Originally posted by XoEarlyMorningoX
I can handle bigger things and I doubt I would get sick of it after only drinking it once.
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I know you can. And that's not what I meant; I get sick of it because it's too big and I throw out like half the smoothie every time. Very wasteful.
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Originally posted by eli's_rhythm
Tell them.
Make new friends. Friends who actually know you/would accept you. You'll feel like you've found new life.
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I completely get what you're saying... Like I said, its terrifying though. I don't even know where to begin, who to start with, etc. I'm just really, truly lost and scared. And sad about it all. I LOVE my friends, the last thing I want is to lose them or have my friendship with them diminish just cuz of my sexuality. They've done so much for me over the years (my best friends I mean).
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Member Since: 5/23/2010
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Originally posted by eli's_rhythm
I know you can. And that's not what I meant; I get sick of it because it's too big and I throw out like half the smoothie every time. Very wasteful. |
Keep it fancy Eli.
Anyway, unless they spoil quickly I won't have a reason to throw it out because they have these things called refrigerators, they're amazing. Where you can put a food/liquid product in and it'll stay preserved.
I need to watch some romance movies so yeah.
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Member Since: 2/9/2008
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Originally posted by Jurred
I completely get what you're saying... Like I said, its terrifying though. I don't even know where to begin, who to start with, etc. I'm just really, truly lost and scared. And sad about it all. I LOVE my friends, the last thing I want is to lose them or have my friendship with them diminish just cuz of my sexuality. They've done so much for me over the years (my best friends I mean). |
I know exactly what you mean but if they're SO GREAT to you then your relationship won't be diminished just because you're gay. There will be some initial confusion, isolation, maybe even denial or anger (Why didn't you tell me earlier? or Are you sure it's not just a phase?), but if they're truly good people, they'll get over it and your bond will be stronger than ever.
I'm a bit scared of coming out completely too, but I know my lifelong best friends will be cool with it.
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Eli your empathy is growing. I'm so proud of you.
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Member Since: 3/4/2009
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Originally posted by Jurred
Ugh. I feel like I'm friends with a bunch of pretentious, stuck-up people caught up in their own little worlds and have no idea what anything is like outside of their own little worlds. It sucks being 21 and feeling like I'm so much more mature than everyone else around me. I really hate the fact that I'm 21, already have my own full-time job, apartment, car, paying for my own school tuition, etc... All because life put me in this circumstance. I really feel like so much of the time I feel so alone, and without anyone to talk to, because of my age and what I'm doing with my life. ****, its not even that I think these people are stuck-up... In reality I'm just jealous that these people get to still have their fun and do what they want while I'm in a position that I have to work to survive. I miss having a family.... I miss being normal.... I just want things to get back to the way they were. Sadly, I have to resign myself to the fact that things will NEVER be normal again. I just really, really, REALLY need a friend who gets me. I'm sorry to anyone who had to read this drunken rant..
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oh god. That makes me admire you.
I am sure those friends of yours that seem to be having fun also admire you, they have their problems, they feel down more than you do, but cover it up by having brainless fun, drinking, partying non-stop etc. You will see the positive results of being a determined young man in the long-term though. and it will feel great I'm sure.
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