Lately I feel like I've been realizing more that I can never be beautiful and that everything I've tried to do hasn't been working, so I should just focus on things that are more natural for me like my personality or my intellect. But idk I'm suddenly having this like horrible feeling of "when other people did what you did, it worked, and it's so easy and if you don't have a good body you're worthless" and idk I feel like **** now and I don't want to go outside again