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Tournament: ATRL's Drag Race - A New Superstar! (Pg. 393)
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i thought you were like early 20s 
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Mess 
I'm 17, turning 18 in December
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That's awful, you just gotta get a good support base for this year before you leave them behind.
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XO: Well it's nice that you already know you want to go in and make your senior year different. Even though high school can be a drag sometimes  I still look back on those years (and my senior year esp.) pretty fondly, so I think it's worth it to try to make your last year one of your best.
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Originally posted by X/O/X/O
bmbnm,
Sorry for the random pity party (on iTunes, now!). I'm just growing SICK of this pseudo-abusive friend group because this dynamic has been going on for about a year.
We've all had a really mean sense of humor, and it started our sophomore year of high school. I mean, it was cruel; in context, it was funny, but when it boils down to it, it came to making light of and mocking very serious issues ranging from mental disorders to poverty sprinkled around with "You're wearing that? Kill yourself." kind of comments we all made. We all were joking around with it.
And then last May, they all turned on me & said I was the worst of them & that I wasn't funny, which now I sort of understand, but I still hold resentment about because all of them did the exact same thing and one particular girl in the group (who I shall not name but tigerlily13 probably knows hew I'm talking about cuz I talk about them so much to him) was the one who started all of it. That whole event, where they turned on me, has sent me into a downward spiral of insecurity and doubt ever since. I know I was definitely at fault, because I took part in those things, but it still kind of sucks to go through the backlash.
And since junior year started, we were back together as friends, and I was trying hard not to resort back to the ruthlessly offensively mean sense of humor, but they continued on with it, and I became a target. I've been the go-to person for every joke and deprecating comments. It's clear they think pointing out that I'm inferior to them is funny, and over the past year and peaking around the last few weeks at lunch (where every day became "Drag Robbie Day", according to them), they nitpicked at things I used to see as my strength and tried to make me see them as a weakness, and every time I've ever tried to speak up, they tell me I'd deserve it. It all happened in ways that could be seen as jokes if you were there in person, but speaking about it in retrospect it seems a lot more serious, which it is.
When school starts (a week from today ), I plan to make my senior year different. There's only one member of the group that I really care to still talk to, and I hope to continue a friendship with her, but the rest I plan on leaving behind so I can get myself together.
Sorry for the essay, and like I said at the beginning, sorry for kind of creating a pity part. It's just something I've been thinking about more and more and I needed to get it off my chest. Thank you all for your comments & for putting up with this length of nonsense.  |
you're always welcome to let it all out sis  it's important to get it out of your head
I need to rant myself but I can't  I'd rather swallow everything and pretend it's all okay, I don't want anyone to see my insecurity
and mess @ you're only 17, my perception of me about you is a damn lie 
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Originally posted by getback
I'd rather swallow everything
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Originally posted by Subomie
That's awful, you just gotta get a good support base for this year before you leave them behind.
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Originally posted by feelslikeadream
XO: Well it's nice that you already know you want to go in and make your senior year different. Even though high school can be a drag sometimes I still look back on those years (and my senior year esp.) pretty fondly, so I think it's worth it to try to make your last year one of your best. |
Thank y'all. 
I really need to get it together this year. Figure out college, my future, all that. I need to come thru this year.
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Originally posted by getback
you're always welcome to let it all out sis it's important to get it out of your head
I need to rant myself but I can't I'd rather swallow everything and pretend it's all okay, I don't want anyone to see my insecurity
and mess @ you're only 17, my perception of me about you is a damn lie |
nbnb Thank you
But mess. Aside from venting to tigerlily pretty much every other day about every lil quip one of them has said, that's the first time I've ever really gone off about it in such a lengthy thing.
I know it shows as vulnerability a bit, but I really needed that.
But double mess. What did you think about me before?
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We are a community of support and love here.
I'm sure if Citrus wasn't busy getting pounded on a mountain by a middle-aged man without a condom he would agree.
Now a few tears for the camera hunties.
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Oh
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I only practice safe sex. I don't wanna have bad blood
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Originally posted by X/O/X/O
Thank y'all.
I really need to get it together this year. Figure out college, my future, all that. I need to come thru this year. nbnb Thank you
But mess. Aside from venting to tigerlily pretty much every other day about every lil quip one of them has said, that's the first time I've ever really gone off about it in such a lengthy thing.
I know it shows as vulnerability a bit, but I really needed that.
But double mess. What did you think about me before? |
early 20s, goth, Tumblr...
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early 20s, goth, Tumblr... :deadbananan: |
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not 17
girl in what world
you're giving me at least 22
the way you dress and your hair dont help
you are not serving me still in high school, youre serving me edgy college student / dropped out to join the underground scene in town
but ok
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I'm guessing you guys think I'm late teens and white <3
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Originally posted by Tymps.
I'm guessing you guys think I'm late teens and white <3
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NO
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okay i'm doing my judging now so expect hints soon trannys
i already know yall are gonna be mad about this
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Bye @ the flattery
"you look like Pearl's twin"
"you look like an edgy 22-year-old"
I can't tell how genuine this is and am on guard
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robbie please post that table you made for episode 1 again please. i cant remember everybody's names and i can't find it
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Originally posted by X/O/X/O
Bye @ the flattery
"you look like Pearl's twin"
"you look like an edgy 22-year-old"
I can't tell how genuine this is and am on guard
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whatever I say to you, I mean it
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Originally posted by keshaspearsxo
okay i'm doing my judging now so expect hints soon trannys
i already know yall are gonna be mad about this
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#JusticeForTeam1
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You two look like twins 
Chanel your Twitter is a mess