OKAY! First thing's first: let me address any of you who may have any type of feelings from my post earlier. I probably should've put a viewers discretion is advised tag on it. I didn't have time to write a whole essay on what I was feeling. I was at work. I stopped for a second to check the results and I only had a short amount of time to reply which is why I CLEARLY SAID I would reveal more when I got home. So as for that, I'm unapologetic .
Secondly. You. Nait: That was not a
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. IF I was for sure dropping out I would've said it right then and there. Point blank and unreserved. I said what I said. Also, for you and anyone else who thinks I was just complaining about the challenge, this is my FIRST time even seeing the challenge. I have no problem with the challenge. So there's that.
I knew exactly what I was getting into when I signed up for this competition.
HOWEVER I was unaware of how my personal life would interfere with the game and my performance. If anything, I feel as if I'm letting myself down because I don't have the time to really sit down and write a song at this point in my life. I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR THREE DAYS AND I STILL SUBMITTED A SONG. I GOT MY WISDOM TEETH PULLED AND I STILL SUBMITTED A SONG. DRUGGED AND ALL. I WORK 65 HOURS PER WEEK, GO TO SCHOOL FULL TIME AND TAKE CARE OF MY HOUSEHOLD AND I STILL SUBMIT SONGS. I have been nothing BUT a team player and supporting and invested so how dare you.

I signed up for this competition one week after spending one whole month in the hospital. I told myself I could do it and yes there have been times where I was ready to give up, but I stuck it out and I took bad comment after bad comment from you judges in stride to better myself as a songwriter because it's something I'm passionate about. If you haven't considered giving up, fine! Hoorah for you. I'm genuinely excited and happy for you. Two thumbs up from me. Wooparty and all that! I'm me and my decisions are my decisions.
One of the many reasons I've stayed and am -/continuing to stay- are because first and foremost I'm proving a point to myself. Secondly, I've made it this far already. Thirdly because I don't think it's fair to the other contestants for me to just drop out abruptly dangering the competition.
So before anyone thinks I'm a cold-hearted bitch, I do think about the other members of this competition. Just so we have no other misunderstandings like this. I hate having to address folks and get snappy.
Thank you all and you have a lovely evening.
And remember....Make your song sing.
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