[SpinThatShhh]

Originally posted by Flavs97

I saw my crush a couple of days ago at a friend's party since december when we finish high school.

I thought that i forgot all the things that i feel for him but i was wrong, when he hugged me and he said that he missed me i was screaming inside and then he said: did you miss me? tell me the truth, did you miss me? and i only said: yes, yes i miss you and we started talking about what we have done since the last time that we saw . But then yesterday i read his twitter just for curiosity and he just keeps tweeting to his girlfriend that he loves her so much, im just so jealous of her even tho she's a sweet girl and very quiet and she loves him too.

What an asshole.

[Homogenic]

Originally posted by BeyNavi

My Britney sized meltdown that I shouldn't be having here because this involves members but you know what, i'm in an idgaf type of mood right now so yeah. Btw, can't spill specifics or too much tea so this might sound kinda vague.

Okay, I really hate guys. I really do. You try so hard to be there for them and let them know that you're there for them but do they realize it, no. All they want is to be with people who don't give two ***** about them really. Idk, maybe i;m just so nice that I just let people walk all over me, something that I say I'd never let anyone do, only to realize that that's exactly what i've probably been doing. I'm not mean. I don't deserve to be over looked. I don't deserve to be used. I don't deserve to just be someone's friend. I don't want to be just friends anymore, I want more. And I understand, i'm asking for a lot considering the fact that i;m a closet case but still. Just because i'm in the closet, doesn't mean that i should, once again, be overlooked! It's not fair. Life isn't fair, I know but I'm tired of just being used and overlooked. I am almost 20 years old and the sad thing is that, i'm pretty much completely inexperienced. Never been in a real relationship, or a relationship at all. I haven't kissed anyone since my first kiss and you don't want to know how long ago that was. I'm still a virgin which I should be proud of but quite frankly i'm tired of holding on to it. Thinking that I would find someone who truly wants to be with me and lose it to him/her is a complete delusion. It's a fairytale. It's not real life.

I don't like my crushes anymore. They're all overlooking me. No one wants me. I try but I get nowhere. What's the point of telling someone you like them if they aren't even going to say anything or act as if they didn't hear you or like you never said it or just completely disregard it and talk around it. Just be upfront with me. I hate people that don't tell me up front what they want. If you just want my body then tell me. If you want to be with me, tell me. I'm not going to cry about it though. I can't. I'm already struggling more than anyone will ever know about being in the closet on top of people using me, not that that's a complete bad thing because I use them too but I wouldn't do any of it with anyone I couldn't I see myself with possibly.

One of my crushes is M.I.A., and the other is just...idk what the hell is going on with that tbh. I told him but it's like he didn't hear me. I love talking to him and stuff but honestly I just don't know. I'm tired of feeling like i'm being ignored. I'm tired of people not realizing how great they are. I try my best to make my crushes and everyone else feel as if they are worth it because they are. Everyone is worth it. Everyone deserves to be happy and to find that someone but I've come to realize that it's not for me. I don't deserve it tbh. I can't. There's no point in liking anyone anymore. I'm done. Happy reading my classic meltdown, aren't you? nnn....

Daniel I know. Happy for you and I hope everything goes great

I read it like some speech
Very good words, BeyNavi

[Maiko]

Ugh.

I think I've given up.

[Alystar]

Crushes,**** them. Sorry Atrl sis.
I was really into someone who I thought he might have interest in me, but he doesn't seem to be into me. He either feels bad that I'm bit lonely type of person, or he just not into me for either being in a relationship/not his type/straight that's why he talks with me from time to time. He always throws hints acts flirtatious a bit, and have this swagger/white ghetto boy attitude " Banjee alert", but he also talks about girls etc... their nbs, ****ing them, his ex....., so I don't know. Anyways, the hell with it. I guess I will be forever alone.

[Saint]

Originally posted by BILLIONAIRE✘BOY

I understand you might be going through a lot right now but I'm going to be up front with you. The sooner you come out of the closet the sooner your dating/sex life will be fulfilled. A lot of gay guys won't even look twice in the direction of a guy who's still in the closet , idk why that is but that's just how they are. The more you put yourself out there the more you'll be open to receive. But you're right , hands down . Guys are stupid , they're liars , they give all of their loyalty to those who least deserve it and it ****ing sucks. I think sometimes like this ... Like what's the point of giving out so much love when no one is giving it back? It gets ****ing hard feeling isolated and not seeing your ideal future ahead of you but you just have to learn to focus on other things. Like school or some sort of hobby or just hanging out with your friends. When you least expect it , it'll happen. + also just make sure your happy with yourself (not saying you aren't) But you can't love anyone else if you don't love yourself first

Thanks for the words. I know that coming out will most likely make things a lot better but finding someone hasn't been an issue. It's just finding someone that actually legit wants me. I'm a hell of a lot more open now than I used to be even on here, i'm an open book. Granted the is just online **** but some of these connections i've had with people on here have turned into something more than I have with people I see every single day. I'm happy with myself and i'm so glad that i'm able to say that. Hopefully things will change soon for the better. I just want to be happy and at least for once feel some type of real intimacy with someone.

Originally posted by AllEyesOnUz

feel better bitch

Thanks bitch

Originally posted by Homogenic

I read it like some speech
Very good words, BeyNavi

Thanks! I've been told i'm very good with my words.

[SpinThatShhh]

Somebody grabbed my ass and whispered into my ear "if you were Gay, I would destroy you" in ASDA. ew.

[marajxgrant]

Originally posted by BeyNavi

My Britney sized meltdown that I shouldn't be having here because this involves members but you know what, i'm in an idgaf type of mood right now so yeah. Btw, can't spill specifics or too much tea so this might sound kinda vague.

Okay, I really hate guys. I really do. You try so hard to be there for them and let them know that you're there for them but do they realize it, no. All they want is to be with people who don't give two ***** about them really. Idk, maybe i;m just so nice that I just let people walk all over me, something that I say I'd never let anyone do, only to realize that that's exactly what i've probably been doing. I'm not mean. I don't deserve to be over looked. I don't deserve to be used. I don't deserve to just be someone's friend. I don't want to be just friends anymore, I want more. And I understand, i'm asking for a lot considering the fact that i;m a closet case but still. Just because i'm in the closet, doesn't mean that i should, once again, be overlooked! It's not fair. Life isn't fair, I know but I'm tired of just being used and overlooked. I am almost 20 years old and the sad thing is that, i'm pretty much completely inexperienced. Never been in a real relationship, or a relationship at all. I haven't kissed anyone since my first kiss and you don't want to know how long ago that was. I'm still a virgin which I should be proud of but quite frankly i'm tired of holding on to it. Thinking that I would find someone who truly wants to be with me and lose it to him/her is a complete delusion. It's a fairytale. It's not real life.

I don't like my crushes anymore. They're all overlooking me. No one wants me. I try but I get nowhere. What's the point of telling someone you like them if they aren't even going to say anything or act as if they didn't hear you or like you never said it or just completely disregard it and talk around it. Just be upfront with me. I hate people that don't tell me up front what they want. If you just want my body then tell me. If you want to be with me, tell me. I'm not going to cry about it though. I can't. I'm already struggling more than anyone will ever know about being in the closet on top of people using me, not that that's a complete bad thing because I use them too but I wouldn't do any of it with anyone I couldn't I see myself with possibly.

One of my crushes is M.I.A., and the other is just...idk what the hell is going on with that tbh. I told him but it's like he didn't hear me. I love talking to him and stuff but honestly I just don't know. I'm tired of feeling like i'm being ignored. I'm tired of people not realizing how great they are. I try my best to make my crushes and everyone else feel as if they are worth it because they are. Everyone is worth it. Everyone deserves to be happy and to find that someone but I've come to realize that it's not for me. I don't deserve it tbh. I can't. There's no point in liking anyone anymore. I'm done. Happy reading my classic meltdown, aren't you? nnn....

Daniel I know. Happy for you and I hope everything goes great

omg. don't give up sis, you will find him one day. But truthfully, you need to come out of the closet because after you do, you'll find everything opens up for you.
& thanks sis

[Saint]

Originally posted by marajxgrant

omg. don't give up sis, you will find him one day. But truthfully, you need to come out of the closet because after you do, you'll find everything opens up for you.
& thanks sis

I know. I say I'm giving up but I know i'm not

[Kid A]

Sorry BeyNavi

But like everyone said once you come out the opportunities will come to you.

[marajxgrant]

Originally posted by Flavs97

I saw my crush a couple of days ago at a friend's party since december when we finish high school.

I thought that i forgot all the things that i feel for him but i was wrong, when he hugged me and he said that he missed me i was screaming inside and then he said: did you miss me? tell me the truth, did you miss me? and i only said: yes, yes i miss you and we started talking about what we have done since the last time that we saw . But then yesterday i read his twitter just for curiosity and he just keeps tweeting to his girlfriend that he loves her so much, im just so jealous of her even tho she's a sweet girl and very quiet and she loves him too.

omg. what a two-faced DL ******

Originally posted by SpinThatShhh

I'm really confused.
Why do I have a sudden urge for the D and not the V.
Mess.

my impact on you.

Originally posted by mistertsa

I have this huge crush on a really cute guy from my school
he's 1 year younger than me, his brother is my classmate
he gives me signs sometimes, he keeps staring and I stare back
but when I checked his twitter profile I found out that he has a gf -___-
I was about to follow him but when I saw his tweets to her I was like..........NO WAY
maybe he's bi idk but according to his tweets he loves her so much & she loves him too I guess
I was very disappointed I thought I had a chance
well I still do he keeps staring and his gf lives in another city
I just can't talk to him I don't talk to his brother that much I can't do the first move until I make sure that he's serious not just playing or whatever
he went to his gf's city for spring break I know his ig and his twitter but I won't make the first move and follow him if he's in a serious relationship tbh

it's a follow, not a marriage proposal. just do it sis.

Originally posted by SpinThatShhh

Somebody grabbed my ass and whispered into my ear "if you were Gay, I would destroy you" in ASDA. ew.

was he cute?

[marajxgrant]

Originally posted by BeyNavi

I know. I say I'm giving up but I know i'm not

GOOD!

[Nikko]

I'm still crushing on my teacher HARD. Yesterday, I was sent by my Geography teacher to edit a presentation in her room and she left me alone and went out. Her room is right next to that one teacher's room and I didn't even know that. So I just stayed there editing that powerpoint presentation listening to the voice of my crush teaching juniors a few feet away from me.

[marajxgrant]

Originally posted by Nikko

I'm still crushing on my teacher HARD. Yesterday, I was sent by my Geography teacher to edit a presentation in her room and she left me alone and went out. Her room is right next to that one teacher's room and I didn't even know that. So I just stayed there editing that powerpoint presentation listening to the voice of my crush teaching juniors a few feet away from me.

fail a test & ask to do it after school & seduce him/her sistren.

[Saint]

Thanks guys Love you guys

[SpinThatShhh]

Originally posted by Kid A

Sorry BeyNavi

But like everyone said once you come out the opportunities will come to you.

OMG, YOU DIDNT SHADE ME

Originally posted by marajxgrant

my impact on you.

ddd; I think I'm enjoying that side more because I'm new to it? idk.
And, I don't know if he was cute. I wasn't going to look back.

[Homogenic]

Some bright things had happened to me. Kinda Remember I was talking about trip to Sweden? So, today I was meeting my best friend, who also went there. We are both kinda free about our sexualities, but she doesn't know that I crush on our mutual classmate. So, she went there alone and my crush brought 2 of his friends (not from school). When we talked about that trip via internet, she said that his friends are a bit strange, but I didn't really pay attention to that. But today we were talking about that again, and she said they're strange because they are giving her gay vibes Moreover, she had a thought that they had a threesome there lmao (probably she was not being serious, but still ).
It's a bit important, because she doesn't really call everyone "gay", even if it is an obvious case. Or she got that I crush on that guy and just wants to know my reaction to this type of things (unlikely tho)
I don't claim anymore to be together with my crush (I'll try to move on), but you know
Falling for a closeted guy > > Falling for straight guy

[Kid A]

Originally posted by SpinThatShhh

OMG, YOU DIDNT SHADE ME

What you talking about heifah?

[SpinThatShhh]

Originally posted by Homogenic

Some bright things had happened to me. Kinda Remember I was talking about trip to Sweden? So, today I was meeting my best friend, who also went there. We are both kinda free about our sexualities, but she doesn't know that I crush on our mutual classmate. So, she went there alone and my crush brought 2 of his friends (not from school). When we talked about that trip via internet, she said that his friends are a bit strange, but I didn't really pay attention to that. But today we were talking about that again, and she said they're strange because they are giving her gay vibes Moreover, she had a thought that they had a threesome there lmao (probably she was not being serious, but still ).
It's a bit important, because she doesn't really call everyone "gay", even if it is an obvious case. Or she got that I crush on that guy and just wants to know my reaction to this type of things (unlikely tho)
I don't claim anymore to be together with my crush (I'll try to move on), but you know
Falling for a closeted guy > > Falling for gay guy

Except it will never last like that.

[marajxgrant]

Originally posted by SpinThatShhh

OMG, YOU DIDNT SHADE ME

i think he did.

Originally posted by SpinThatShhh

ddd; I think I'm enjoying that side more because I'm new to it? idk.
And, I don't know if he was cute. I wasn't going to look back.

sis, you need to experience the magical wonders that are the male sexual reproductive organs

[marajxgrant]

Originally posted by Homogenic

Some bright things had happened to me. Kinda Remember I was talking about trip to Sweden? So, today I was meeting my best friend, who also went there. We are both kinda free about our sexualities, but she doesn't know that I crush on our mutual classmate. So, she went there alone and my crush brought 2 of his friends (not from school). When we talked about that trip via internet, she said that his friends are a bit strange, but I didn't really pay attention to that. But today we were talking about that again, and she said they're strange because they are giving her gay vibes Moreover, she had a thought that they had a threesome there lmao (probably she was not being serious, but still ).
It's a bit important, because she doesn't really call everyone "gay", even if it is an obvious case. Or she got that I crush on that guy and just wants to know my reaction to this type of things (unlikely tho)
I don't claim anymore to be together with my crush (I'll try to move on), but you know
Falling for a closeted guy > > Falling for gay guy

this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but like...it's annoying as well.