I honestly still feel undeclared what my sexual orientation is concerned. I feel increasingly sexually and emotionally attracted to women (

), but my criterias of attraction are different for each of the genders. I don't look for the same qualitites in a man as I do in a woman. Its upsetting/confusing cuz I used to think I was just gay, which I was fine with, but it never felt
quite right, I'll admit.. its troubling especially since I was kinda getting settled in a gay identity. Recollecting my feelings over time I guess I've come to the conclusion that I'm gonna stop trying to categorize my sezuality and just see what happens.. I was in love with a girl in 2012 but I repressed it and tried to shake it off

Now it's really awkward because I know she liked me too at the time and the last time we met we had the longest most weird hug I've ever experienced.
What a mess
