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Originally posted by accelgors
i've mentioned in this thread, i was in a relationship with a guy for a year and a half and that's the most authentic one i've had. it was far from perfect, but after the initial super affectionate puppy love stage i started to just feel this nice content and safe feeling around him most of the time, and then we'd have a special night together and i'd feel all the passionate stuff again...it was really different from the one month crash-and-burn type ones i've had in the past. the best part of it wasn't the kisses and compliments and stuff, it was the feeling of caring and emotionally supporting each other and things like that. i almost wrote a long-ass rant here about those feelings but i managed to stop myself. lol
...but in the end, that one ended really, really badly. we were happy for a long time but about 3 months before it ended he started ignoring me more and more often and saying insulting things to me a lot, and half the time we'd talk we'd be fighting. eventually we broke up and i guess i wasn't ready for that kind of feeling? like, watching someone lose interest in you slowly just sucks.
and so after we broke up, we tried to stay normal friends, but i was so upset that i did a lot of really stupid things that i'm not proud of. so i don't think i can call him a bad person, at least not without a little doubt. he did some seriously bad things to me and in a lot of ways he's really insensitive, but i messed up a lot too, so i think i should try and view the whole thing as because of both of us, not just him, especially because for a long time he really was good to me. and honestly, i don't want to view something i spent so much time on as being completely wasted on a bad person. i don't feel ok with that idea.
...i always rant about this, i'm sorry everyone, i've just been thinking about it so much for so long and i never get to tell anyone about it so i'm making this forum basically my diary  |
Yeah, well don't let it get you down  you'll end up not romanticising the situation as much when more time has passed - I can assure you
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Originally posted by inagalaxyfar
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The desperation
