Because I haven't met Zac Efron yet
But seriously, it's because I'm really shy especially with the guys I find attractive so I just tense, I'm not being open and I'm becoming akward. Most of the time.
I'm not attractive to the guys I have a crush on (and I have pretty high standards ) but to the guys I don't have a crush I am. Mess. It's never likewise
Also, I'm not very social, i don't have patience so most of the time I like to spend my time on my own.
It's hard to find somebody in a place like Paris where people are not very open and judge constently.