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Originally posted by Victon
i do want sis,, just share.. i just jump in and write mine, i didn't check the older pages..
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The tea for me is that no one likes me. If someone does like me, they wouldn't tell me. I'm not into going out and partying and drinking and all of that stuff that people my age are into, not saying I don't like to drink cause I do but not as much as others. I don't go out and hang out with people, not because I don't want to but no one ever asks and yet they always complain that we never hang out outside of school. I've never been in a relationship before because I've never been 100% sure of my sexuality and once I started to figure it out that's when things kinda started to get out of hand and on top of that, only my best friends know that i'm bi which kinda makes things a little hard and then sen more I don't drive so that's a big inconvenience in my life. I really want to be in a relationship with someone but no one finds me attractive and even if they did, I almost always find reasons to push people away because everyone that I've ever let into my life and cared deeply about has left me when they said they wouldn't and yet because of who I am, I'm still there for them because I believe everyone needs someone there for them regardless of anything that may warrant against it. I'm a complete mess. I wish that I could just move away and be by myself and alone because nothing good ever happens to me and I need to just accept that.
Well that's the end of that.