so the last time time i was in here (a quick summary) i met this cute, adorable guy on grindr and then we started dating. then i snuck into his house, had the greatest night ever, then left around 5am. then later that day i texted him and then his mom texted me saying to never speak/come see her son ever again. so, yeah.
then 2 weeks or so ago i saw his profile on grindr (i had remembered his default picture) and i got so confused. so i naturally messaged him but then he went offline and never came back online.
so i waited a few more days and then, i finally got over him and moved on with my life.
so today, as usual, i was watching ****, listening to DEAN's 'Half Moon', and lurking Grindr. this old guy (i think he's hot as **** and he's 50 years old) that i hooked up with once a year or so ago messaged me. then we wanted to 'hang out and watch tv' and i was like 'sure' so we talked on the phone for a bit then 5 minutes later he picked me up (we literally live dont the street)
so i went to his house (which is so ****ing nice in the scariest neighborhood possible) and then we were legit watching the news. then he pulled out his **** collection (****ing DVDs i was dying) and then put them in.
he started to, y'know, do this thing and i was so ready (i had douche prior because, you never know) and then we, we talked bodies. the con? he was so ****ing rough and when he had to ***, he sounded like a ****ing lawnmower. i wanted to him to get the **** out of me so fast but i had to put up with it cause... he's huge and i couldnt move him to save my life.
so then that happened and when i got him he said 'so your mine right?' and my head ****ing SPINNED. just cause we basically hook up twice, that does NOT make us boyfriends. idk, i just couldnt date him so i just said 'no sorry im going to **** somebody tomorrow' and left. im not ****ing anyone tomorrow but still.
but then, maybe i should give him a chance? but idk. ugh, im such a mess with men
