internalized self-hatred? You do know it's not the fact that the guy is straight it's the fact that he isn't gay? it has nothing to do with looks. it has a lot to do with masculinity. Masculinity is the attraction. then it's the personality and so on.
That's untrue. It's all about your perception. See you perceive gay as ugly and straight as attractive. If most of the boys you liked were gay, you probably wouldn't like them anymore.
If most gay guys are ugly, does another gay guy have the same perception of you? Think before you speak hun.
idk, it sucks though, especially when the straight guy is someone you're close to so you can't detach the feelings of romantic love from the feelings of love for your best friend
Story of my life.
OT: Because they are more masculine, at least for me.
I lusted after my best friend when I was around 14 and after a few months I realized it wasn't worth it and I forced myself to not be attracted to straight men ever again.
My worst ever crush was 3 years of LOVING this stupid hot guy at my school, who started off as a friend but we drifted apart and he buffed up and became a cool guy and paid me dust and I lived.
God it was the worst. Hate that I didn't know better than to pay iT dust!
I usually only see this with closeted gay guys. I don't know any out guy who is still in that 'omg im crushing on a straight guy' phase. I think it is also dependant upon age and location. I would look like a fool crushing over some straight man. I am old enough to go out and find a man I can have :melryan:
I don't fall in love with someone cause they're straight. I happen to fall for guys who happen to be straight. Do y'all not realize how limited our options are? I'm like one of three gays on the entire campus
And gay guys are... not. 
