I have so many movies/series to watch. I can't keep up with this ****ing school. I see my abusive ex-boyfriend every ****ing day at school and his birthday is coming up, I've no idea what the **** to do. My life is so eventless and i'm wasting my days one by one. I feel like I need a new boyfriend, my ex was my first serious relationship and it felt great giving someone so much love and you know, having that thing between you. It felt like heaven being wrapped around in someone elses arms. But it's nearly impossible here. I have so many close friends but I feel alone. I'm so overwhelmed.