Alright, you guys are about to get all my feels for about two minutes here. I wanted to come over and say...Marina is officially the second person I "stan" for. Keep the following in mind:
1 - I am a male
2 - Pop music really isn't my scene, I generally like alternative music much more
Back to the matter at hand.
My whole life, my go to music release has been P!nk. She had talent, which I greatly admired, but right around the time "I'm Not Dead" came out was about the time I started to come into my own (right around that time where you start making conscious decisions and the like, if you know what I mean.) and I was instantly infatuated with her on every level. Even though my life has been very kind to me, whenever I would be supremely upset (over a poor mark or my parents not giving me the attention I wanted, you know, lame stuff that a typical 12 year old thinks marks the end of the world :P) I would immediately turn to P!nk. That bond has always been reinforced time and time again as she always had a song pertinent to how I felt.
However, I just started college. In high school, I had one friend. It wasn't because I didn't like people, or even people didn't like me, it was because people didn't like her. I felt obligated to constantly remind her how much of friends we are, while she, really, deprived me of a ton of relationships. We had a falling out senior year and I was left alone, as all these people made relationships already. The shift from school to college came as a big surprise. I was no longer comfortable in my skin, as everyone is either taller, stronger, smarter, friendlier, more outgoing...and then there was me.
I found myself trying to change who I wanted to be over the summer and this fall -- I kept putting myself down and thinking about how what I am, isn't good enough. I wanted to just put on this disguise of someone better, or not even better, just someone with definition I guess.
Enter "The Family Jewels" and "Electra Heart"
See, I've had the Family Jewels since December, and got Electra Heart the earliest possible moment I could, and they were outstanding. I loved them, but I they never really took on a pivotal role in my iTunes like P!nk did. On a day I was particularly upset about my parents not wanting me to visit and my "friends" not wanting me to come home, my iPod shuffled into "Rootless" by Marina and...I was blown away.
I always admired her lyricism, but I never appreciated it to its fullest. Oh my GOD, it is ****ing fantastic. Seriously, out of the world. She definitely helped me through a rough patch. She has material about so much more than just love -- she has acceptance, regret, hatred, indulgence...everything!
She made me realize that, even though that one person scrwed me over for such a long time, it made me a better person. I have friends that I never even realized where there to back me. I have brightened up again, and I definitely like to think she helped me through it...as lame as it sounds.
Anyway, yeah...that is all

I eagerly anticipate the third album from my new love.