Hi guys. I know this would belong in the blogs section, but I need some advice right now lol.
Sooo, I've been wanting to come out to my parents/sisters for a couple of weeks now, because of a lot of things that have happened. We used to be really close, but recently our relationship has gotten kinda bitter.
They accidentally found out about my sexual orientation when I left my phone in their room, and I got a message from a friend like at 2am (2 YEARS AGO) I wasn't there cuz I stayed at a friend's house. Anyway, my mom woke up and looked at the message and went through all of my conversations in my phone. Next morning when I got home I found her kneeling, crying, and praying
but I didn't know why. I asked her if she was ok, and she told me somebody was really sick. I first thought about my grandma, but then she told me it was someone else. So then I tried to look for my phone and I couldn't find it. That's when I got super scared.
So, my mom didn't talk to me all day long until my dad got home. They both talked to me and asked me if I was "confused" about my sexual orientation, or if someone had "touched" me in some type of way. My mom even offered me a psychologist lol. I felt really bad. But I told them I was just straight, and blah blah blah. They kinda bought it, but not because they believed me, but because I guess they didn't want to accept the fact that I was gay. They would never accept me. They literally talk **** about the LGBT community lol. They're super religious and close minded.
So yeah, I guess I can say I started hating them, because they treated me as if I was some sick kid. And I mean, our relationship was ok, but I never talked to them the way I used to.
But it was until 2 weeks ago when I started acting even more rude towards them, because I am really getting tired of them lol. And they noticed. They even talked to me earlier today, complaining about my attitude, and how they felt I was being cold towards them. I literally wanted to tell them it was their fault, because after the phone incident, they made me feel like was weird, that I was sick and needed help, that god hated me, and **** like that. I couldn't care less about that now, but I find it so hypocritical of them to say they'll "always support me" and that they "love me" when I know for a fact they wouldn't be saying that if I came out.
So basically, I want to come out to them to finally "break" our relationship I guess. But I don't know if I should, because idk how badly they'll react.
