Please stay strong, your life is worth so much. Please don't throw it away just like that. When you're depressed it often feels like it's the end of the world and it can't get better but there is a reason why so many say it does, because it does get better.
If the person you have feelings for is hurting you in any way (even unknowingly) you need to cut them out of your life. It's very painful and harsh but this is about you. As long as this is hurting you, you won't be able to recover from the pain.
How old are you? Is there any way you could get free counseling (like school or uni)? There are also plenty places online where you can talk to professionals or other people who have recovered, if you feel lonely and need help. Also, my PM is always open if you need to talk to someone.
