I usually look in the mirror, cringe a little, and walk away. I just try not to think about it honestly. But I'm not nearly as hard on myself as I used to be.
I would do the same if I was you cuz you're gorgeous man.
Usually I just cry at how ugly I am
the dear pain and sorrow in this post. I can tell you want him but he is str8 so it hurts you so you say "man" to not alienate him....story of a gay boy ...your not alone