... if I have depression or other mental illness? Seriously.

Psychological Therapist. Your insurance probably covers it.

A psychologist or psychotherapist but why not post this on Yahoo answers?
There are online tests you can take before seeing an specialist you are really desperate to know. Hope you get through it tho!

waiT your user name I just realized hope this is not some kind of cheap shade.

As I said I'm serious. I used to go to the psychiatrist as a child, and basically nothing changed since then. I mean it did, for the worse.

I hate that people can't take me seriously bc of my username lol. I just love Amanda, thats it.

See a psychologist and a psychiatrist ASAP. PM me if you'd like more deets. I see both regularly

You need a psychiatrist.