What are your daydreams? When you're listening to music on public transport, staring out the window, what scenarios do you imagine and come up with for your life?
I'm a massive daydreamer. I don't know why, I just always have been. Whether I'm sitting at home in my room or I'm on a train to Uni, I'll put my earphones in and just daydream while listening for music. A lot of them are recurring.
1. I have one where I'm insanely rich and I buy a luxury apartment in New York. One Friday night, I hear a lot of noise coming from my neighbour across the hall. I knock on the door to ask them to turn the music down and it's Rihanna's apartment. She, Melissa and Jen are partying, smoking weed, drinking, etc. They hear my Australian accent and invite me to come in and party. We become best friends
2. Another one, which I don't really understand, is that I'm a gay Australian rugby player, and I'm playing at the Rugby World Cup (kind of like the Superbowl) and I've recently been outed. I'm about to kick a penalty that would win Australia the World Cup when the opposing country's supporters in the stadium start chanting "FAAAGGOT! FAAAAGGOT!" I pull down my knee-high green socks (which are the socks Australian Union players wear) to reveal knee-high pink socks underneath. I stick both of my middle fingers up, and flip everyone off. I run towards the rugby ball, score and win the game. I then proceed to dance like a go-go boy hahahaha
3. I also have this daydream where I'm one of six sextuplets (3 boys and 3 girls) and I'm back in high school with them. I'm still gay, the other two brothers are straight. The 3 girls are all identical but one stays blonde, another dyes her hair brown and another dyes her hair red so people can tell them apart. All the other people in our high school remain the same as the people I went to high school with.
4. This last one is the one that I have the most and the one that I've been having the longest. I wasn't that popular in high school and I went from being a little bit chubby, to being quite skinny, to being slightly chubby again in my senior year. All I cared about was studying and getting into a good college, and I was eating crap food. But I never had the body I wanted until I started getting into weights about 9-10 months after finishing school. I ALWAYS used to have this daydream (and still do) that I would come back from summer holidays one year in high school and I would be in insanely good shape. And in the time that we'd had off from school, I'd bulked up and gotten really muscley.
In Australia we have a school assembly every Monday morning that the whole school has to go to, and it's like 1000 students (from Year 7-12) sitting in the school's biggest hall/auditorium/main concrete area. I was always late, but this daydream I have is always of me rocking up late, walking down to my year group, and seeing all their reactions going "holy ****....is that....is that Josh?"
And another variant of this daydream is that I bulked up over summer and go to the first assembly of the school year, but I rock up kind of out of it, with glitter sprinkling out of my hair because I went gay clubbing the night before
I was never proud of my sexuality or out during high school, but now that I'm fine with it and know how easy it is to be out (and to bulk up and get muscley) I wish I could go back to when I was like 15 and do it all then.
Eventually I did bulk up, and got into weight-training, but that was a year after high school ended, and all I really got was the satisfaction of uploading photos of my progress to social media. It would have been nice to actually get some satisfaction out of changing who I was, and changing people's reactions to me DURING high school. I graduated almost 5 years ago (end of 2009) but I still have this daydream really frequently.
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That was so long
Sorry for the essay
What are your daydreams?
). I always imagine myself on stage (choreos, outfits, songs..).
