The only time I've ever disliked my gayness is when I see a cute boy, I want to talk to him but then automatically I have to stop and think "wait he might be straight, better not make a move, but what if he is gay? Worth the shot, but what if he gets offended and punches me or hurts me
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I feel like the only way to meet a guy is online or someone who knows someone who knows someone.
Then sometimes they don't even want a relationship, just sexual things. Is it bad I want to be in a comited relationship