No troll thread, depression is a serious thing. But having no gay friends, a boyfriend or family to talk to has made me really down lately. Do any of you suffer from depression as well? How do you deal with it? Does anyone know? Sometimes I feel crazy because I have to tell myself to stay strong sometimes
I've been having suicidal thoughts recently but would never do anything as I wouldn't want my the people that hate me to know they've won. Hopefully I can find a few others to talk to about this.

I've struggled with depression in the past. It's really hard to live life when it feels like nothing makes you happy. It's past ennui, it's way past ennui. If you ever, ever, ever need to talk I am here for you whenever you need me.

Yes. I have severe Melancholic Depression. With blunted affect. lucky me

Medication isn't working.

Thanks for the support I'm here for you whenever you need me too. It's hard because no one knows how down I feel sometimes. I bottle things up and just isolate myself so no one knows what I'm dealing with. At times I'm embarrassed other times I'm pissed at myself for letting this affect me but I'm still standing and will continue to push through hopefully

What is that exactly? I didn't know their were types of depression. I've never really did research on this. Do you think depression can go away permenantly or you can cope with it and diminish it?

I've never been seen anyone about it or talked to anyone about it but I'd be surprised if I didn't have it in some form or another. OR something similar at least. I have good days or weeks or even months but then the same can be said about the worse times.

I've been diagnosed with it a few years back but it's been alot better since then.

I have my bad days and I get bouts of social anxiety now and then but I try to keep optimistic.

I think I am depressed

Pretty sure I'm depressed. Have been for maybe 10 or so years, I remember having suicidal thoughts since like 8 or 11. I've tried a drug called 5htp, recommended by my doctor. It works pretty well, you can get it over the counter, I take 100 grams a day. It helped with my mood a lot because without it I feel tired, sluggish, unfocused, and have depressed thoughts. I feel like I might need something stronger though but I'm unsure about other drugs because I don't want to become dependent on them. I want to move to natural ways of dealing with my depression.. exercise, meditation, healthier diet etc.

I dont talk to anyone about it though, I told my mom but she doesn't really understand depression, I hate one of my sisters, I told my brother but Idk if he really gets it but he cried, didn't tell my other sister. I purposefully lost touch with my friends because I'd rather deal with it without extra pressure.

OMG, I was literally thinking about making a thread like this about an hour ago, I'm not even kidding So weird.
Yeah, I was diagnosed in the beginning of 2013. I guess you could say I'm "better" than I was then, but I still think there's a lot more to it. Idk. Things haven't been the best lately

+ you already know this, but I'm ALWAYS here for you. For whatever you need, big or small, you can always come to me to talk to. You should never feel alone

My outlet for dealing with it is going to the gym. It let's out my anxiety and stress however but maybe I should try that over the counter thing. I've never taken anything for it before because I thought I should be able to handle it on my own but we can all use some help as long as it's in moderation. I feel tired an sluggish often so it could at least help if any in that aspect.

No way man! Guess were more in sync that you thought sis

The thing that you know you are depressed is when you are like not upset, just empty. Like you haven't got the energy to be sad anymore.

Oh wait this fits perfectly. Everyone just thinks that I'm super nice and that's why I'm never angry or anything.

I have short periods of time where I feel completely hopeless and suicidal, and I also was depressed for a while last year because of a codependent relationship combined with alcoholism. I actually wrote a suicide note the other day, but I'm fine now. I feel so bad for those that are depressed for very long periods of time. I couldn't take it.

Very much so, I've come to the realization I'm a man driven by emotion, and loneliness in general is something that surrounds me no matter where I turn to, and the problem lies in the fact that I live in my own head a lot of the times, I struggle with solitude quite a bit.

Feeling so isolated emotionally from everyone else surrounding you can be quite a burden to carry.

Are you like me where when you have a boyfriend the depression kind of disappears but once your single the depression returns and is so much stronger? Now that I've been single since October my depression has been on and off with me for a while. The only release I do is cry late at nights and that releases some of the thoughts in my head.

Well I have suffered through severe depression and sometimes I do get into my moods but it's never that serious. My sister was getting bullied from Middle School throughout high school. Being called a n***** and a slave on a daily. She went through severe depression and suicidal thoughts and I think has tried to attempt to do it. While my sister was going through that I was getting bullied as well being called slave feet, n*****, brownie, peopple would ask me to pick up trash for them and call me slave. Then people were bullying me for being too feminine on top of that. This was everyday by the way. This was from 5th grade on to 8th and then 9th as well. While my sister was going through suicidal things and depression I was as well too. So I never talked to my parents about me being bullied for three years. I've thought about suicide MANY times and I almost tried overdosing. My sister and my mom had severe fights, not physically but verbally and then I got into a worse state of depression. As well I was sexually messed with as a kid by another person and I feel like it's been more than once. I'm bisexual but most likely gay now. I can't talk to anyone about it and it's hard but I feel better day by day. I came out to my mother, probably my dad, and my best friends. There's A LOT more that I have been through but ATRL wouldn't really understand I don't think. Its not an insult, they are just problems not really many people have encountered.

Praying for everyone in this thread. Stay strong you guys!

I like being sad. I embrace my depression. There is something cool and ethereal about that feeling
I just love listening to sad music and being sad