hi there
have you ever been sick and tried of people trying to bring you down no matter what you do or try.
i'm student i study outside my country in Ireland with a 9 locals with me.
first everything was ok and things didn't matter.
one of those guys hates me so much even through i swear i haven't done anything to disrespect. i was so nice and very respectful with all of them. even now.
they started to spread stories about me sleeping with one of them and like i was going to their bedroom and try to make him sleep with me etc etc etc. ALL THAT BALLSHIT
no one believed then expect for guys and those guys start a war at me. they don't want any of the locals to talk to me , and they get really mad when someone does. they start to call me names DAILY and they even kicked me out of their house , and they said we don't ever want you to come to visit us or anything. and i was ok with that cause for real i don't care about them or their opinion anyway.
i didn't speak to do anything related to them. and yyet everyday they call me really hurtful names and makes fun of me. since we all live in a one place and there is really not much to do where i live. everyday i set in room for the whole day , its really boring and i can't go out cause if did ? where will i go ? all the guys gather in one place which is that house , and i can't go their .
it's really painful what i'm going through , i have though of suicide couple of times, but then i was like , hell no they are not going through me and ruin my day.
i set alone almost everyday. i pray for this semester finish so i can go home and see my real friends and people who respect me now matter what i do .
i feels so lonely here i cry almost every day cause of what they say.

i know this should be on the blog section but when i try to make a thread their it sends me to the main page.
i so sick and tried of all this