Member Since: 4/22/2009
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Penthouse Letter Gone Wrong
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Hello, the article that I read on this site about HOCD is argubly the best that I have read thus far and it mirrors what I am feeling.
How do I share my concern. I am married with children. For as long as I can remember, I have always been attracted to women I have been with innumerable.I have only been attracted to women in all my life. I have never found men attractive and still do not. Yes, I will love to have a robust constitution like most men, I will to look like men who are fit, but that is as far as my attraction goes and that still stands. However, When I was in my twentys I vividly recall feeling very liberated and happy one day that my thought ran wild and I harboured impure thoughts about men. I subseqently felt as warmth around my butt regilion, nothing physical, just mental I am pretty certain. I then went to use the toilet, soon after defecating, I felt a burning sensation in my anal area, here again nothing physical, just mental. That was when my burdens started. Every time from then I used the toilet, immediately after, I felt a burning sensation. This sensation followed homosexual thoughts. However, I was never attracted to men. I was still attracted to females.This inexplicable feeling brought lots of agony,depression,suicidal feelings, thoughts that I might be gay etc. I really struggled initially because this was weird for me.
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Girl... His starfish was puckering for some cawck.
http://www.brainphysics.com/question...-heart-to-have
The one at the top of the page is good too... but not in a good way.
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