Yes, in every regard. There are times when I feel like it's getting to hard on me and the fear eats me up alive, but it's important to invest all my time in life rather than death, I think, I mean that's what my mindset is to get through these "periods" I'd call them.
Yes. The fact that it is inevitable and it could be nothing but eternal darkness and unconciousness is scary. Its like what's the meaning to life? I get a blip of time and then an eternity of nothing. I hope theirs an afterlife but it could all be make believe.