I had this image of this trophy and me accepting these awards and me kind of training myself to be this champion and at the end of the day, when you go through these things, is it worth it? When you get this trophy and you're like "I basically starved. I have neglected all of the people that I love, I've conformed to what everybody else think I should be and I have this trophy." What does that mean? The trophy represents all of the sacrifices I've made as a kid and all the time I've lost being on the road and in the studio... and I just wanna blow that sh*t up.