It's not just you
I'm not slim so I get judged for it too. I'm not even fat
I think men in general are just stuck on physical appearances. I know I can be too, but at the end of the day I want someone that I can love and that can love me back, it's all or nothing for me. I've seen guys say that it was a health concern and that they just want their other man to be as healthy as them or whatever. I call ******** on that, you're looking for a love partner, not a fitness buddy.