Well, I've been bullied basically everyday of my life since 7.
From my old blog..
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I don't really have these feelings about myself anymore.. but the visual perception of society and how everyone has to be 'pretty' to be popular, liked, etc. doesn't seem like it'll change anytime soon. Bad news for me.
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I'm fat and worthless. I'm ugly. I kept wanting to take pictures of myself on my iPod this week for the Post Your Pics thread and I couldn't do it because of all my pimples, freckles, my ugly, messed up hair, how I look so pathetic and my disgusting smile. I started gaining weight (slowly) since 7 and now I'm maintaining my weight in a specific range and not gaining anymore, but people still stare at me and look down at me like I'm a criminal or something. Those stares.. it just makes me feel like I did something wrong, when all I did was ruin my life.. which doesn't have anything to do with those people. I would say that out of all the things that makes me sad, this affects me the most. The jokes (only the most hurtful ones), the teasing, the bullying, the stares people give me.. but I'll admit they aren't wrong. I am a disgusting pig and a worthless scum.
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But yeah.. basically every school I go to, especially the one now.. nobody cares about you if you're not attractive. They will push you aside, just stare at you in the hallways like you're some freak. There's also a fight everyday at my school.. it's sad. I just come to get an education and I have to feel like **** when I go at the same time.